I'm trying to hurry up and enter a blog entry before the scheduled maintenance at 4:30. So, my day has been ok. It seems like it dragged along but thank goodness it's almost time for me to go and tomorrow is Friday! I have a pretty busy weekend coming up. Tomorrow is K's 32nd birthday and the plan is dinner at Fox Sports Grille and maybe a movie. I know he didn't want to do much but I'm determined to make this a good birthday because come next year, it's all about the baby. LOL.
Speaking of the baby, this little bugger has been jumping and moving around all day. I had a pop tart at 7 this morning and I think the sugar gave him/her a jolt. Then he/she was pretty quiet for the early and started jumping again a few minutes when I ate an apple. I think the fact that I just finished some soup for lunch might have gave him/her a rise in blood sugar. I'm pretty tired and ready to get home but I have to do some riding around the city to find K a birthday gift. I know what I want to get him but find any stores in the city that have the product I'm looking for. That sucks but I'm sure I'll work something out.
Last night I had an epiphany that I really am pregnant. I was trying on clothes to figure out what to wear to work and discovered that I can't fit anymore of my regular jeans. I could get away with them before but man, not now. Those suckers aren't fitting at all. I feel so fat but I'm not because I'M PREGNANT! LOL I kinda had my feelings hurt today. Kanetta said that she and Naomi were going to go to Miami and I said I'm going too. She then said that I can't go because I'm pregnant and that I could complain throughout the ride. I know she was playing but I don't wont' people to feel like I'm totally incapable of anything just because I'm prego. I can still hang and party with the rest. :) In the meantime, I'll indulge in some celeb gossip...
Blogging
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Didn't blog yesterday. I distinctly told myself to do it but I guess I got wrapped up in stuff here at work. Nonetheless....
Yesterday was a rough nausea day. I just don't get it. I thought I was over it or moving to a better point with it but it seems to go back and forth. It doesn't help that I've been suffering from constipation. But luckily, prunes are keeping me moving. LOL. I am pretty tired again like I was earlier in the pregnancy. I've been going to bed around 8:30-9 but I did manage to stay awake until 11 the other night at K's house.
Looks like we're hitting that 13 wk mark. Thank you Jesus. I'm so happy. I feel so much better when I feel this baby flutter around. Let's me know he/she is ok. Strangely I haven't felt any movement today. About 10:30 I'm going to go walk the stairs here at work for some exercise. Maybe that will give the baby a jolt to wake up and squirm a little.
Tonight is laundry night. I'm just going to chill at my parent's house and cook dinner while I wish. I figure I should be out of there by 8 as usual to get home for American Idol. I've been craving pickled pig and smoked neckbone with potatos. I don't know why, it's just calling me.
On a lighter note, I started my workout plan. Yea, i was working it out last night. Momma has to get it back tight and right after the baby gets here. I also want to look good during my pregnancy. This baby and I are going to take lots of pictures come Sept/Oct.
There has been a couple more loss on MDC. It's so sad to hear about these mother's lossing their babies. Jesus I thank you everyday for my baby. Thank you Lord. My heart really goes out to these mothers and I will continue to pray for their strength and for a healthy pregnancy at some point.
Yesterday was a rough nausea day. I just don't get it. I thought I was over it or moving to a better point with it but it seems to go back and forth. It doesn't help that I've been suffering from constipation. But luckily, prunes are keeping me moving. LOL. I am pretty tired again like I was earlier in the pregnancy. I've been going to bed around 8:30-9 but I did manage to stay awake until 11 the other night at K's house.
Looks like we're hitting that 13 wk mark. Thank you Jesus. I'm so happy. I feel so much better when I feel this baby flutter around. Let's me know he/she is ok. Strangely I haven't felt any movement today. About 10:30 I'm going to go walk the stairs here at work for some exercise. Maybe that will give the baby a jolt to wake up and squirm a little.
Tonight is laundry night. I'm just going to chill at my parent's house and cook dinner while I wish. I figure I should be out of there by 8 as usual to get home for American Idol. I've been craving pickled pig and smoked neckbone with potatos. I don't know why, it's just calling me.
On a lighter note, I started my workout plan. Yea, i was working it out last night. Momma has to get it back tight and right after the baby gets here. I also want to look good during my pregnancy. This baby and I are going to take lots of pictures come Sept/Oct.
There has been a couple more loss on MDC. It's so sad to hear about these mother's lossing their babies. Jesus I thank you everyday for my baby. Thank you Lord. My heart really goes out to these mothers and I will continue to pray for their strength and for a healthy pregnancy at some point.
Monday
Monday, January 28, 2008
I had a pretty good weekend. Friday night Kanetta and I went out to dinner and then looked at baby stuff. The fact that I was looking for a crib and deciding what I wanted really hit me that I was pregnant. Oh my goodness. I mean, really, I'm pregnant. Nonetheless, Saturday was spent with my mom and Estell. I swear we were all over the city. I did so much walking but it was good. I definitely paid for it Sunday morning. I guess Baby was like, "No ma'am. You did all the walking so now you're going to be sick all morning." LOL. After spending a lazy afternoon around the house, I spent Sunday evening at K's. He cooked dinner and then we lied in bed and eat ice cream while watching a movie. And it was a pretty good. Some Bruce Willis flick. Speaking of which, there is a line he (K) said that I will never forget, "We'll have to keep you pregnant." I'm not going to elaborate but do note that I was tickled.
I felt ok today; just a little nauseous and tired. I came home and took an hour nap. I'm trying to break myself of that habit and will do some walking at work. Just a little exercise. I would do it when I get home but Lord knows I'm so tired I don't feel like doing anything. I did get with K about the costs of the crib and stuff. Not really sure how we're going to do that but he said we'll take a look at it. I'm also going to pick up some diapers and some detergent this weekend too.
K's bday is on Friday. The plan is to go to Fox's Sports Grill but I feel like we should do something else. He's not big on celebrating bday's but I am. I'm not sure what to get him. Maybe a gift card or something but I feel like it should be more considering he's turning 32.
The baby is moving around and jumping all over the place. I tell you what, this kid is going to be a busy body. I get so excited thinking about meeting him or her. I've already started thinking about my baby shower plans and everything! I've decided on invitation designs and all that good stuff. I'm pretty much going to leave the big stuff to my mom and Estell and the girls. In the meantime, I'm going to get ready for bed and prepare for a busy workday tomorrow.
13 weeks this week!
I felt ok today; just a little nauseous and tired. I came home and took an hour nap. I'm trying to break myself of that habit and will do some walking at work. Just a little exercise. I would do it when I get home but Lord knows I'm so tired I don't feel like doing anything. I did get with K about the costs of the crib and stuff. Not really sure how we're going to do that but he said we'll take a look at it. I'm also going to pick up some diapers and some detergent this weekend too.
K's bday is on Friday. The plan is to go to Fox's Sports Grill but I feel like we should do something else. He's not big on celebrating bday's but I am. I'm not sure what to get him. Maybe a gift card or something but I feel like it should be more considering he's turning 32.
The baby is moving around and jumping all over the place. I tell you what, this kid is going to be a busy body. I get so excited thinking about meeting him or her. I've already started thinking about my baby shower plans and everything! I've decided on invitation designs and all that good stuff. I'm pretty much going to leave the big stuff to my mom and Estell and the girls. In the meantime, I'm going to get ready for bed and prepare for a busy workday tomorrow.
13 weeks this week!
Miracles and Blessings
Friday, January 25, 2008
Seems like the nausea isn't gone yet. I've been sick to my stomach since yesterday afternoon. I tried to eat a baked potato last night and not even that stayed down. What's really gone? Even today my appetite has been scarce but I did manage to eat something for lunch (brown rice and veggies). Still suffering from some constipation but I'll just have to wait this out and keep eating prunes. On a lighter note, the baby has been moving and jumping for most of the day so I feel really good about that. Thank you, Jesus.
I don't have any plans for the weekend. Kanetta is stopping by tonight and we're going to dinner and probably the mall. Nothing much; just a relaxing evening. I'm definitely going home to a nap before she gets there though. I need to rest. I'll also have to get a new pair of shoes. Now that the midwife has given me the green light to start exercising, I plan to do just that. No plans for Saturday, probably just sit around the house and rest before returning to work Monday.
I'm still thinking about this moving thing and trying to decide if transferring to another apartment in the complex would be ideal or should I just move all together. At this point, I can afford where I live but I don't want to did myself in too deep into an apartment I can't handle.
Holly, one of my MDC buddies, is 12 wks and found out that he baby was measuring at 6 wks with no heartbeat. The baby died. My heart really goes out her. She and I have grown rather close and I just feel so bad for her. It is so sad. I keep worrying and wondering about my child and need to just be thankful. Thank the Lord I have this tiny blessing in me that is flipping, growing and with a strong heartbeat. Thank you Jesus. I read an interesting article on MSN today about single parenting. I can't worry and concern myself with if whether or not he's going to be there and help the way he should. I know K will love this child with every part of his soul but even if things don't work out, I will not concern myself with anything else other than making sure my child enjoys life. It's so funny to hear him refer to the baby as "my baby". It's ironic that I was looking at pictures of him pushing our friend's daugther's stroller and holding her when we all took a road trip last year. Ironic that he's going to be doing the same thing here shortly.
My other MDC friend, Angela, got to see her baby and hear the heartbeat. I guess it made it all real to her the same way it did me. Amazing thing life is.
Let me wrap this up because my eyes are beginning to drift close at my desk and I still have an hour left in the office.
I don't have any plans for the weekend. Kanetta is stopping by tonight and we're going to dinner and probably the mall. Nothing much; just a relaxing evening. I'm definitely going home to a nap before she gets there though. I need to rest. I'll also have to get a new pair of shoes. Now that the midwife has given me the green light to start exercising, I plan to do just that. No plans for Saturday, probably just sit around the house and rest before returning to work Monday.
I'm still thinking about this moving thing and trying to decide if transferring to another apartment in the complex would be ideal or should I just move all together. At this point, I can afford where I live but I don't want to did myself in too deep into an apartment I can't handle.
Holly, one of my MDC buddies, is 12 wks and found out that he baby was measuring at 6 wks with no heartbeat. The baby died. My heart really goes out her. She and I have grown rather close and I just feel so bad for her. It is so sad. I keep worrying and wondering about my child and need to just be thankful. Thank the Lord I have this tiny blessing in me that is flipping, growing and with a strong heartbeat. Thank you Jesus. I read an interesting article on MSN today about single parenting. I can't worry and concern myself with if whether or not he's going to be there and help the way he should. I know K will love this child with every part of his soul but even if things don't work out, I will not concern myself with anything else other than making sure my child enjoys life. It's so funny to hear him refer to the baby as "my baby". It's ironic that I was looking at pictures of him pushing our friend's daugther's stroller and holding her when we all took a road trip last year. Ironic that he's going to be doing the same thing here shortly.
My other MDC friend, Angela, got to see her baby and hear the heartbeat. I guess it made it all real to her the same way it did me. Amazing thing life is.
Let me wrap this up because my eyes are beginning to drift close at my desk and I still have an hour left in the office.
1st appointment - SUCCESS
Thursday, January 24, 2008
I had my first doctor's appointment yesterday and it was absolutely wonderful. I am really loving the midwife that will be assisting me. She totally put me at ease and did a very thorough and extensive exam. She has my due date at August 8, 2008 and I'm 12 weeks along now. The baby is measuring at 11 wks and 3 days (well 4 today). I just can't believe it. I'm really pregnant.
I got to hear the baby's heartbeat and see it on the screen. K came in they let him hear it and see it too. I think we both freaked out when we saw/heard it. The baby was bouncing around so much she had to push down on my stomach to get him/her to stay still. Here's baby's first picture:
I got to hear the baby's heartbeat and see it on the screen. K came in they let him hear it and see it too. I think we both freaked out when we saw/heard it. The baby was bouncing around so much she had to push down on my stomach to get him/her to stay still. Here's baby's first picture:
Who would have ever thought that I would be having a child? Needless to say, I'm very excited and very happy. I can't wait for him/her to get him. I've already started my baby book and will work on that tonight while I'm doing laundry. My next appointment is Feb 20 and we should be able to tell the sex by then. I guess I better start looking for furniture.
catching up
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
I didn't realize until this morning that I hadn't blogged since last Thursday. Much has happened. Let's get started:
Thursday - I was sick and nauseous for most of the day. I still think the feta cheese on that Greek salad had something to do with it. I felt awful but I did manage to make it to dinner at Wahoo which was great by the way. It was fun seeing the girls and just kicking back for an evening. I did feel extremely sick all the way home and went right to bed.
Friday - still sick and not feeling well at all. Wasn't sure if I was going to make it to the fight party or not. I talked to K friday night and just lied in bed. I wasn't feel up to doing much since it was snowing (which was beautiful. I have pics) so I just stayed in and slept.
Saturday - K called and woke me up. He offered to come take me grocery shopping (I love him sometimes) but I said I would be ok. The snow was coming down pretty hard and it was rather icy out but I managed to push through the nausea and fatigue and go. Glad I did because I got tons of stuff. I did go to the fight party which had a huge turnout. I only stayed until 1 because I was tired. Interestingly enough, Chris kept asking me if there was something I wanted to talk to him about. I had no idea what he was talking about so I just ignored him. I spent the night at K's b/c there was no way I was driving to Stockbridge. On my way to his house, some guy at the gas station was hitting on me. It was really sweet but i wasn't interested. Anyone who refers to themselves with initials and wears an afro wig is not my type. During the night, K was playing with the baby who was unusally active in the middle of the night. I felt his hand on my stomach but I was exhausted. It was really sweet. I feel as though he's getting a little more comofortable with this pending baby situation.
Sunday- Woke up at K's with the worst nausea. I had him go out in the cold and get me some grits and watermelon. We ate and watched a movie in bed and I took a nap. By afternoon, I felt better and went out shopping. I was craving a hot dog and some spinanch. The hot dog wasn't as satisfying but the spinach was sooooo good! I can't wait to eat it for lunch on Wednesday. Dinner for me consisted of berries and spinanch. Meat wasn't looking or smelling too good. I ended up in bed in at 9:30 and I think he got in bed at 11:30. I just to love for him to hold me when I sleep and rest his hand on my belly.
Monday - Since it was a holiday I was off so I spent the day at home sleep. I did hang out at my uncle's house for a while and then at my parents but I was home by 8 and sleep by 9:30. It was just a lazy day for me. Glad I took advantage of it and rested. For some reason, I couldn't sleep again so I kept waking up. Need to investigate that some more. I did go check out some apartments. The ones across the street at awesome and I just might consider moving there if the money is right. Need to call my complex today and find out about transfering.
Today - Well, back at work. Feeling a little tired and a little nauseous but I'll get through it. I'm supposed to be meeting with my new boss this afternoon but hopefully she contacts me before I leave for the day at 3:30. I'm so anxious for my first appointment tomorrow. I swear it doesn't feel like I'm pregnant but I know I am. I just want to hear a heartbeat and see the baby. I think it will put my mind at ease so much more as opposed to waiting and wondering. K is going with me tomorrow. Maybe then I'll believe I'm actually pregnant and not keep feeling like I'm mentally convincing myself. Oddly, this baby is pretty active this morning. Gosh, i feel him/her jumping all over the place. I think they like this smoothie i'm drinking.
Emotionally I'm ok. I'm not upset, not really extremely happy just....content. Next month will bring tons of change and as I go into my 13th week this week, the magnitude of everything is settling in for me. Wow. I'm really going to be a mom. I had a dream the other night that I had the baby and that it was a boy. In the dream, I wasn't prepared for the baby to be here so I didn't have any of the baby stuff unpacked or opened. He was the most adorable little boy with K's complex and smile and my eyes. I am dying to know if this kid is a boy or girl. I just pray for a healthy and happy baby and think the Lord everyday for a such a blessing.
Well, let me get started on my work day.
Thursday - I was sick and nauseous for most of the day. I still think the feta cheese on that Greek salad had something to do with it. I felt awful but I did manage to make it to dinner at Wahoo which was great by the way. It was fun seeing the girls and just kicking back for an evening. I did feel extremely sick all the way home and went right to bed.
Friday - still sick and not feeling well at all. Wasn't sure if I was going to make it to the fight party or not. I talked to K friday night and just lied in bed. I wasn't feel up to doing much since it was snowing (which was beautiful. I have pics) so I just stayed in and slept.
Saturday - K called and woke me up. He offered to come take me grocery shopping (I love him sometimes) but I said I would be ok. The snow was coming down pretty hard and it was rather icy out but I managed to push through the nausea and fatigue and go. Glad I did because I got tons of stuff. I did go to the fight party which had a huge turnout. I only stayed until 1 because I was tired. Interestingly enough, Chris kept asking me if there was something I wanted to talk to him about. I had no idea what he was talking about so I just ignored him. I spent the night at K's b/c there was no way I was driving to Stockbridge. On my way to his house, some guy at the gas station was hitting on me. It was really sweet but i wasn't interested. Anyone who refers to themselves with initials and wears an afro wig is not my type. During the night, K was playing with the baby who was unusally active in the middle of the night. I felt his hand on my stomach but I was exhausted. It was really sweet. I feel as though he's getting a little more comofortable with this pending baby situation.
Sunday- Woke up at K's with the worst nausea. I had him go out in the cold and get me some grits and watermelon. We ate and watched a movie in bed and I took a nap. By afternoon, I felt better and went out shopping. I was craving a hot dog and some spinanch. The hot dog wasn't as satisfying but the spinach was sooooo good! I can't wait to eat it for lunch on Wednesday. Dinner for me consisted of berries and spinanch. Meat wasn't looking or smelling too good. I ended up in bed in at 9:30 and I think he got in bed at 11:30. I just to love for him to hold me when I sleep and rest his hand on my belly.
Monday - Since it was a holiday I was off so I spent the day at home sleep. I did hang out at my uncle's house for a while and then at my parents but I was home by 8 and sleep by 9:30. It was just a lazy day for me. Glad I took advantage of it and rested. For some reason, I couldn't sleep again so I kept waking up. Need to investigate that some more. I did go check out some apartments. The ones across the street at awesome and I just might consider moving there if the money is right. Need to call my complex today and find out about transfering.
Today - Well, back at work. Feeling a little tired and a little nauseous but I'll get through it. I'm supposed to be meeting with my new boss this afternoon but hopefully she contacts me before I leave for the day at 3:30. I'm so anxious for my first appointment tomorrow. I swear it doesn't feel like I'm pregnant but I know I am. I just want to hear a heartbeat and see the baby. I think it will put my mind at ease so much more as opposed to waiting and wondering. K is going with me tomorrow. Maybe then I'll believe I'm actually pregnant and not keep feeling like I'm mentally convincing myself. Oddly, this baby is pretty active this morning. Gosh, i feel him/her jumping all over the place. I think they like this smoothie i'm drinking.
Emotionally I'm ok. I'm not upset, not really extremely happy just....content. Next month will bring tons of change and as I go into my 13th week this week, the magnitude of everything is settling in for me. Wow. I'm really going to be a mom. I had a dream the other night that I had the baby and that it was a boy. In the dream, I wasn't prepared for the baby to be here so I didn't have any of the baby stuff unpacked or opened. He was the most adorable little boy with K's complex and smile and my eyes. I am dying to know if this kid is a boy or girl. I just pray for a healthy and happy baby and think the Lord everyday for a such a blessing.
Well, let me get started on my work day.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Today is such a struggle for me to stay awake. Oh my goodness. I mean, I am doggone tired. I guess it didn't help that I couldn't go to sleep for anything last night. I don't know if I was uncomfortable or just restless but I couldn't sleep. I watched tv until I did and that was all she wrote.
It snowed here yesterday. It was so amazing. Like a winter wonderland. It hasn't snowed in Atlanta in about 6 years so this was a pleasant surprise. I put on a nightgown, watched it from my living room and relaxed. I'm supposed to meet up with some friends after work for dinner but I'm not sure if I'm up for going. No, I take that back, I should definitely go. I don't spend as much time with them and I want us to catch up with things.
K called last night to check on me. Sometimes he can be so sweet and I remember at those moments why I fell for him. He said that he worries when I say that I've been cramping and stuff. That's the stuff that scares him. It's nice to know that he really is concerned about us. And then of course he asked if the baby was moving and I said yes, everyday around 4 and every night when I'm trying to go to sleep. I certainly hope this little rascal isn't a nightowl. If so, K will be up with him/her every night!
I wasn't feeling too hot a little awhile ago. I don't know why but sometimes I get these cramps in the back of my thighs. I try to breathe through them and drink more water. I think lack of water is the issue for me. I've started doing some stretching and squats to get shape. It seems like my butt is getting flat and that's a no haps for me! Gotta get it tight, get it right. LOL.
I suppose I should go eat something now. At least attempt too while I feel up to it.
It snowed here yesterday. It was so amazing. Like a winter wonderland. It hasn't snowed in Atlanta in about 6 years so this was a pleasant surprise. I put on a nightgown, watched it from my living room and relaxed. I'm supposed to meet up with some friends after work for dinner but I'm not sure if I'm up for going. No, I take that back, I should definitely go. I don't spend as much time with them and I want us to catch up with things.
K called last night to check on me. Sometimes he can be so sweet and I remember at those moments why I fell for him. He said that he worries when I say that I've been cramping and stuff. That's the stuff that scares him. It's nice to know that he really is concerned about us. And then of course he asked if the baby was moving and I said yes, everyday around 4 and every night when I'm trying to go to sleep. I certainly hope this little rascal isn't a nightowl. If so, K will be up with him/her every night!
I wasn't feeling too hot a little awhile ago. I don't know why but sometimes I get these cramps in the back of my thighs. I try to breathe through them and drink more water. I think lack of water is the issue for me. I've started doing some stretching and squats to get shape. It seems like my butt is getting flat and that's a no haps for me! Gotta get it tight, get it right. LOL.
I suppose I should go eat something now. At least attempt too while I feel up to it.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Didn't realize that I didn't blog yesterday. I guess I was so excited about Founders Day that it slipped my mind. Nonetheless, Founders Day was great. Had dinner with Sandrina and Tiffany. We had a great time. Lots of laughs as usual.
I woke today in some what of a funky mood. I think I didn't get enough sleep but I really didn't feel like getting out of bed this morning. I totally just wanted to stay home and sleep the morning away. Either way, I dragged my slightly nauesous butt out of bed and came into the office. So far the day has been flying by. I didn't realize I was in a meeting until 11:30 and that i've been working until 12:30. I'm heading to lunch at 1, come back at 2 and leaving at 315. I need to go home and get some serious sleep.
Baby bumper was fluttering around last night when I got home. He or she gets excited about food (go figure). I might pick up a huge caesar salad tonight though and call it a day. I don't really want any meat but I do want to make sure I'm getting enough protein and essential vitamins like I should. Speaking of vitamins, gotta make sure I take mine at lunch.
Other than that, we've made it to 11 weeks. All is well. I feel good and still cant believe there's a little life in me growing away. 3 more weeks and they will tell me if it's a boy or girl. I guess I could go ahead and know the sex but I would prefer not too. Oh well, I got some time to think about it. Right now, I'm going to go eat and then take a nap.
I woke today in some what of a funky mood. I think I didn't get enough sleep but I really didn't feel like getting out of bed this morning. I totally just wanted to stay home and sleep the morning away. Either way, I dragged my slightly nauesous butt out of bed and came into the office. So far the day has been flying by. I didn't realize I was in a meeting until 11:30 and that i've been working until 12:30. I'm heading to lunch at 1, come back at 2 and leaving at 315. I need to go home and get some serious sleep.
Baby bumper was fluttering around last night when I got home. He or she gets excited about food (go figure). I might pick up a huge caesar salad tonight though and call it a day. I don't really want any meat but I do want to make sure I'm getting enough protein and essential vitamins like I should. Speaking of vitamins, gotta make sure I take mine at lunch.
Other than that, we've made it to 11 weeks. All is well. I feel good and still cant believe there's a little life in me growing away. 3 more weeks and they will tell me if it's a boy or girl. I guess I could go ahead and know the sex but I would prefer not too. Oh well, I got some time to think about it. Right now, I'm going to go eat and then take a nap.
Made it to Monday
Monday, January 14, 2008
I just realized that I didn't post all weekend. I guess since I was so busy doing stuff and resting, posting was the last thing on my mind. Let's see, Friday night I did Kanetta's hair and ended up spending the night there. I was exhausted and it was late. Strangely, I dreamt about my grandmother that died this summer. I haven't thought about me and dreamt about her since she died. It was funny because in my dream she was alive and laughing like she always did. I said, "Granny its good to see you. You look so good." She said, "Yes, I feel good." I said, "Well, I'm sure you heard I'm pregnant huh" and she said, "yes and I'm happy." And then she was just grinning down like she always did. My grandmother loved her some babies. I guess it was validation to me that she's ok with this pregnancy.
Saturday my cousin Shawn came by and we hung out around the house and grabbed some lunch. Just catching up on his crazy love life and how my pregnancy was going. I sure hope God blesses him with a wife soon. Dude is so desperate to date and be with someone it's ridiculous. Then Saturday night K brought me my carribean food I've been craving. I only managed to eat two bites and I was done. But he stayed the night and even slept over last night. We just hung out around the house and watched tv. It was nice spending time. The baby of course was doing somersaults because his/her daddy was there. I'm just glad he was there because I woke up with horrible cramps Sunday morning. I thought I would have to go to the hospital but they passed.
Sunday night we didn't do much. Watched football and Terminator and that was it. We went to bed around 10:30 and that was it. I didn't feel up to doing much but who knows. Maybe this weekend I'll actually go out to the movies or something.
I've met some really cool women on MDC and I've really appreciated all the kind words and advice they provide. I'm loving my MDC family. It's good to know that I'm not alone in the mess I go through. Pregnancy isn't easy but I wouldn't trade this experience for anything in the world. On saturday, I finally reached a point and realized that I'm going to be ok. Like, I'm ok with all the mess and everything going on. I feel fine and know that I have a strong support base even if it isn't with those that I want all the time, it's still there. That's such a great feeling to me. Me and this baby will be just fine.
I keep getting more and more excited about my appointment next week. I can't wait! I hope we get to hear the heartbeat and maybe have an ultrasound. I just want a picture of my baby that I can have and see. Plus I have to send a copy to K's folks for them to have as well. Wow, I can't believe it's already 3. It seems like it was just 11 not too long ago.
Tomorrow is Founders Day for me. Me and my LS's are meeting up for dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. I have to remember to look at the menu tonight to decide what I'm going to eat. Anyway, other than that, all is well. I plan to start my walking program by the weekend. I figure at 11 weeks, I should be ok. More to come!
Saturday my cousin Shawn came by and we hung out around the house and grabbed some lunch. Just catching up on his crazy love life and how my pregnancy was going. I sure hope God blesses him with a wife soon. Dude is so desperate to date and be with someone it's ridiculous. Then Saturday night K brought me my carribean food I've been craving. I only managed to eat two bites and I was done. But he stayed the night and even slept over last night. We just hung out around the house and watched tv. It was nice spending time. The baby of course was doing somersaults because his/her daddy was there. I'm just glad he was there because I woke up with horrible cramps Sunday morning. I thought I would have to go to the hospital but they passed.
Sunday night we didn't do much. Watched football and Terminator and that was it. We went to bed around 10:30 and that was it. I didn't feel up to doing much but who knows. Maybe this weekend I'll actually go out to the movies or something.
I've met some really cool women on MDC and I've really appreciated all the kind words and advice they provide. I'm loving my MDC family. It's good to know that I'm not alone in the mess I go through. Pregnancy isn't easy but I wouldn't trade this experience for anything in the world. On saturday, I finally reached a point and realized that I'm going to be ok. Like, I'm ok with all the mess and everything going on. I feel fine and know that I have a strong support base even if it isn't with those that I want all the time, it's still there. That's such a great feeling to me. Me and this baby will be just fine.
I keep getting more and more excited about my appointment next week. I can't wait! I hope we get to hear the heartbeat and maybe have an ultrasound. I just want a picture of my baby that I can have and see. Plus I have to send a copy to K's folks for them to have as well. Wow, I can't believe it's already 3. It seems like it was just 11 not too long ago.
Tomorrow is Founders Day for me. Me and my LS's are meeting up for dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. I have to remember to look at the menu tonight to decide what I'm going to eat. Anyway, other than that, all is well. I plan to start my walking program by the weekend. I figure at 11 weeks, I should be ok. More to come!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Today has been ok thus far. It's about 11:30 and I've managed to change my cellphone plan, get some work done, send off a couple of random emails and feel the baby move! It's such a weird and tickling feeling. It's like a flutter. It seems like this baby likes to stay on my right side because that's where I feel the flutters at all the time. Whatever he or she is doing, they are having a great time doing it to me in the morning and in the evenings. One of my co-workers is also pregnant (5 months) and her ultrasound pictures are so adorable. You can clearly see the baby and it's a girl! I'm so excited and happy for her. I can't wait to see my baby and hear the heartbeat soon. That is going to be so exciting. It's amazing how reality sets in at 10 weeks. I'll be 11 weeks next week. I can not believe it. Time is flying baby.
I was talking to Matt yesterday afternoon and he said that if I'm having a boy, I can have all his son's clothes. Which would be fantastic and if it's a girl, I'm definitely getting all Brianna's clothes.
I meant to call a nurse this morning to ask her about headaches. I haven't had one in a few days but I have one today and it's pretty bad. Not horrible bad but to the point that I feel that I might be napping in my car during lunch today. I'm just not feeling it. I have managed to keep eating and snacking all morning. I'm totally love cheese and crackers. I'm trying to up my protein since the baby is beginning to build bones and is sucking me of my calcium and protein. You have to share with mommy, little one. :) In the meantime, I plan to pick up a yoga dvd this weekend and hopefully feel motivated to clean around the house. I'm still going to bed at 8:30 every night. I try to stay up later but I can't. And I still sleep the whole night (only one bathroom break now) and get up at 6. Everyone keeps telling me to get as much rest as possible. Easier said than done.
I might head over to the girl's house tomorrow night to do some laundry. I should go tonight but I'm totally not motivated (or awake) to drive anywhere but home. I have a longing to start buying baby stuff but I'm going to wait until Feb 1 to start doing that. We at least need to start racking up on diapers and stuff. Luckily I have a Sam's membership because I think I'm definitely going to take advantage of it with the baby.
Oh, I saw the most adorable picture today of a father holding his newborn son. It was so sweet! Ok, I really can't stay awake so I'm going to head to my car, catch a 30 minute nap and then come back to work.
I was talking to Matt yesterday afternoon and he said that if I'm having a boy, I can have all his son's clothes. Which would be fantastic and if it's a girl, I'm definitely getting all Brianna's clothes.
I meant to call a nurse this morning to ask her about headaches. I haven't had one in a few days but I have one today and it's pretty bad. Not horrible bad but to the point that I feel that I might be napping in my car during lunch today. I'm just not feeling it. I have managed to keep eating and snacking all morning. I'm totally love cheese and crackers. I'm trying to up my protein since the baby is beginning to build bones and is sucking me of my calcium and protein. You have to share with mommy, little one. :) In the meantime, I plan to pick up a yoga dvd this weekend and hopefully feel motivated to clean around the house. I'm still going to bed at 8:30 every night. I try to stay up later but I can't. And I still sleep the whole night (only one bathroom break now) and get up at 6. Everyone keeps telling me to get as much rest as possible. Easier said than done.
I might head over to the girl's house tomorrow night to do some laundry. I should go tonight but I'm totally not motivated (or awake) to drive anywhere but home. I have a longing to start buying baby stuff but I'm going to wait until Feb 1 to start doing that. We at least need to start racking up on diapers and stuff. Luckily I have a Sam's membership because I think I'm definitely going to take advantage of it with the baby.
Oh, I saw the most adorable picture today of a father holding his newborn son. It was so sweet! Ok, I really can't stay awake so I'm going to head to my car, catch a 30 minute nap and then come back to work.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
I'm 10 weeks today. Amazing how much time has flown by. I can't believe this time next week I'll be 11 weeks and then 12 weeks. Heck, they can tell me what I'm having soon. Of course I don't want to know but we'll see. I haven't talk to K since Monday. I just don't get him. One minute he's all excited and then now he's MIA. *sigh* Nonetheless, baby and I are just fine. I find it strange that my dad has not called me or spoken to me since before New Years. I guess he's still not cool with this baby thing. You really learn whose there and who isn't there for you when it comes down to it.
I was thinking about getting away for the weekend. Heading south to Florida to visit some friends. I need something to cheer me up. Of course the money is an issue but I think I can figure some stuff out. I may leave early on Friday and just go home and lay on the sofa. I need a break. I feel like crap. But this blog is all about the positive and crazy journey into motherhood so I will not dwell on the negative crap in my life.
I've found myself strangely bothered by clutter. I always was but other women on MDC seem to be too. I thought it was just an OCD but it's not. LOL I guess it's a pregnancy thing. I'm also feeling slightly big. I took some belly shots last night to keep. I'll add the link later. 10 weeks and my stomach has made it's arrival. LOL. *waving at the belly*
Feeling good, feeling great
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
I don't know what it is about today but I woke up feeling great! I had an appetite, I wasn't naueous. I don't know what it is. I actually got dressed up for work today, put some makeup and listened to music on the ride in. And get this...I had breakfast. It was just some grits and strawberries but it tasted so good and it's stayed down! Oh man! I'm so excited.
I called the doctor and they said my test results are fine. Everything looks good and on schedule. How about that? I'm so happy I could spit! So, now I can rest easy about that. I got an email from one of the ladies on MDC today and it really touched my heart. I really love the fact that she understands where I'm coming from and had some encouraging words for me.
Its amazing that I will be 10 weeks tomorrow. Wow! 10 weeks pregnant. We're almost through the first trimester, thank you Jesus. I just pray for a healthy and happy baby in there. Time is certainly flying by.
So, ironically I get my horoscope emailed to me and it says this:Your emotional state is much more down to earth than it has been lately, so it could be a good time to try again after a fight with your sweetie or to confront that coworker who doesn't know when to shut up.
Are you serious? LOL. Today is not the day for me to have this talk again with him or my mom. Right now I'm at peace and that's all that matters. My body has gotten so used to midday naps that I'm starting to get tired but I'm going to push through it. Go me, go baby!
I called the doctor and they said my test results are fine. Everything looks good and on schedule. How about that? I'm so happy I could spit! So, now I can rest easy about that. I got an email from one of the ladies on MDC today and it really touched my heart. I really love the fact that she understands where I'm coming from and had some encouraging words for me.
Its amazing that I will be 10 weeks tomorrow. Wow! 10 weeks pregnant. We're almost through the first trimester, thank you Jesus. I just pray for a healthy and happy baby in there. Time is certainly flying by.
So, ironically I get my horoscope emailed to me and it says this:Your emotional state is much more down to earth than it has been lately, so it could be a good time to try again after a fight with your sweetie or to confront that coworker who doesn't know when to shut up.
Are you serious? LOL. Today is not the day for me to have this talk again with him or my mom. Right now I'm at peace and that's all that matters. My body has gotten so used to midday naps that I'm starting to get tired but I'm going to push through it. Go me, go baby!
Monday, January 7, 2008
I just realized this morning that I didn't blog at all this weekend. Part of the reason is that I was sleep, sick or just plan out of it. It was certainly a long weekend. I spent all Friday night on the sofa sleep, Saturday at the doctor's office having lab work done and Sunday lounging around the house. I at least wanted to clean my house but I couldn't get up without a wave of nausea hitting me full force. I was so sick when I woke up at 3 this morning, I couldn't go back to sleep.
I did manage to get maternity clothes from Naomi and buy the baby a book. I've started to read to my belly every night. Last night we read "Three Little Pigs". LOL Emotionally I'm ok. I still get a little sad and miss K but I know I need some time right now. Too much stress and too much going on. I guess everyone forgets that this isn't the time to stress out a pregnant woman. Nonetheless, I'm getting more and more excited about this baby. I'll be 10 weeks this week and I swear this little seed is fluttering around everywhere. I think he/she wakes up in the middle of the night, which is why I end up with stomach aches in the middle of the night. ;)
I'm trying to get myself on a sleep schedule so I might cut off my midday naps I take during lunch. I need them because I'm just plain exhausted but I'm going to do my best to regulate it a little better. I'm starting to shop around for a new apartment. With the baby coming, money is going to be really tight and I need to start getting things in order. I certainly want to make sure plans are set and in motion within the next 4 months. So much to do and so little time...
I did manage to get maternity clothes from Naomi and buy the baby a book. I've started to read to my belly every night. Last night we read "Three Little Pigs". LOL Emotionally I'm ok. I still get a little sad and miss K but I know I need some time right now. Too much stress and too much going on. I guess everyone forgets that this isn't the time to stress out a pregnant woman. Nonetheless, I'm getting more and more excited about this baby. I'll be 10 weeks this week and I swear this little seed is fluttering around everywhere. I think he/she wakes up in the middle of the night, which is why I end up with stomach aches in the middle of the night. ;)
I'm trying to get myself on a sleep schedule so I might cut off my midday naps I take during lunch. I need them because I'm just plain exhausted but I'm going to do my best to regulate it a little better. I'm starting to shop around for a new apartment. With the baby coming, money is going to be really tight and I need to start getting things in order. I certainly want to make sure plans are set and in motion within the next 4 months. So much to do and so little time...
Wigged out
Thursday, January 3, 2008
So I'm still dealing with the emotional stuff from my mom and K and just overall. Last night was rough on me. I didn't sleep well and woke up at 3;00 am to go to the bathroom and discover that I was bleeding pretty heavy. I freaked out and tried to sleep but I couldn't. I called the nurse today and she had me come to get some blood work done. I have to go back on Saturday for some more work. I'm not worried about any of this. Last night was a huge scare but made me realize that I can't let other people and other stuff worry me. I have this precious jewel in me, this blessing from God, and who am I take for granted what he's done? I said today that I would not allow mess to bother me anymore.
I called K (two hours after he called me) and told him what the doc said. I also told him I wanted all my stuff back from his place. He asked me if I missed it and I said no, I just want it all back. He said well, I'm sure you have plenty of lotion so yours is still here on the bathroom counter. Whatever. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm tired of wondering and not feeling like trust exists between us anymore. No way. I'm not going to go there. If he doesn't want to give it all back now, fine. I'll get it later. Nonetheless, I'm getting it back and that will be that. I love K so much it hurts but its hurting me that he doesn't feel slightly the same.
I'm done worrying about other folks. It's time I focus on my health and that of this child coming. I love him/her so much. I can't wait to hear his/her heartbeat and know that everything will be ok. Thank you Lord for such a wonderful gift. Forgive me for not being grateful the way I should have in the beginning. I won't ever do anything like that again.
I called K (two hours after he called me) and told him what the doc said. I also told him I wanted all my stuff back from his place. He asked me if I missed it and I said no, I just want it all back. He said well, I'm sure you have plenty of lotion so yours is still here on the bathroom counter. Whatever. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm tired of wondering and not feeling like trust exists between us anymore. No way. I'm not going to go there. If he doesn't want to give it all back now, fine. I'll get it later. Nonetheless, I'm getting it back and that will be that. I love K so much it hurts but its hurting me that he doesn't feel slightly the same.
I'm done worrying about other folks. It's time I focus on my health and that of this child coming. I love him/her so much. I can't wait to hear his/her heartbeat and know that everything will be ok. Thank you Lord for such a wonderful gift. Forgive me for not being grateful the way I should have in the beginning. I won't ever do anything like that again.
2 days into 2008
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
48 hours into the new year and never have I been so emotionally messed up. I had a conversation yesterday with K about our 'relationship' and to conclude, there isn't one beyond the child. Hurt my feelings but I thought that after a year we would have some sort of defining moment. Not just for the child, but in general. Silly of me to think any different. It's just that right now, I need him the most emotionally and I don't have him.
To top things off, my mom calls this morning and basically says that they are not feeling very comfortable with our relationship as far as this child comes along. She called me a statistic, stating that I would be a 4th generation single mother, something she has worked hard to make sure I wouldn't be. She dreamed of giving me the big wedding and my dad walking me down the aisle, then me getting pregnant and my husband and I enjoying that time together. So after all their hard work and teachings, I've basically let them down as usual. What hurts most is the fact that EVERYTHING I've done in my life up until this point, has not been at the complete satisfaction of myself. No, sometimes I've done things because I know how happy it would make them. I've avoiding certain people, didn't wear certain things, didn't hang around certain people to keep things with them at bay. I don't let my parents rule my life but their opinion and perception matters a lot to me. And for them to say something like this....My mom, though she won't always admit it, has this perception of a perfect family. Well, I guess I would be the one to mess it all up as usual. Just never good enough. When is anything I do in this damn lifetime going to be good enough? Hell, I barely do things good enough for myself but I'm so tired. Lord, I'm so tired of trying so hard to do things that I think will make me better only to be let down in the end.
This is supposed to be one of the best and happiest times of my life and it has turned into one of the worst times. I have never been so unhappy and so hurt in all my life, even when all that mess with Lorenzo went down years ago. I keep wondering if this is something that came about after my parents went to Macon or they just sat around and thought about it on their own.
At this point, I can't do anything but walk away. NYE night he was so busy laughing at text someone sent him and calling one of his women, he didn't even bother to notice thatI noticed. I can't take the hurt and the wondering. I just keep thinking about the fact that when those "firsts" happen, I'll be by myself and have to call. *sigh* Never mind. It doesn't matter. All I want right now is to go home and lie in bed. I don't have an appetite but I'll force myself to eat something later today. I'm done with this issue.
For 2008, I have to do what I have to do and make it work in whatever way I can.
To top things off, my mom calls this morning and basically says that they are not feeling very comfortable with our relationship as far as this child comes along. She called me a statistic, stating that I would be a 4th generation single mother, something she has worked hard to make sure I wouldn't be. She dreamed of giving me the big wedding and my dad walking me down the aisle, then me getting pregnant and my husband and I enjoying that time together. So after all their hard work and teachings, I've basically let them down as usual. What hurts most is the fact that EVERYTHING I've done in my life up until this point, has not been at the complete satisfaction of myself. No, sometimes I've done things because I know how happy it would make them. I've avoiding certain people, didn't wear certain things, didn't hang around certain people to keep things with them at bay. I don't let my parents rule my life but their opinion and perception matters a lot to me. And for them to say something like this....My mom, though she won't always admit it, has this perception of a perfect family. Well, I guess I would be the one to mess it all up as usual. Just never good enough. When is anything I do in this damn lifetime going to be good enough? Hell, I barely do things good enough for myself but I'm so tired. Lord, I'm so tired of trying so hard to do things that I think will make me better only to be let down in the end.
This is supposed to be one of the best and happiest times of my life and it has turned into one of the worst times. I have never been so unhappy and so hurt in all my life, even when all that mess with Lorenzo went down years ago. I keep wondering if this is something that came about after my parents went to Macon or they just sat around and thought about it on their own.
At this point, I can't do anything but walk away. NYE night he was so busy laughing at text someone sent him and calling one of his women, he didn't even bother to notice thatI noticed. I can't take the hurt and the wondering. I just keep thinking about the fact that when those "firsts" happen, I'll be by myself and have to call. *sigh* Never mind. It doesn't matter. All I want right now is to go home and lie in bed. I don't have an appetite but I'll force myself to eat something later today. I'm done with this issue.
For 2008, I have to do what I have to do and make it work in whatever way I can.
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