22 weeks tomorrow

5.5 months and a little less than 4 months to go. I still have told anyone and aren't sure when I will at this point. I might as well let them find out on their own anyway.

K and I went to visit his family this weekend. We finally broke the news that it was a boy. Man, I have never seen people so excited but I think they too wished it were a girl. Maybe next time, well, we'll see... We didn't do much there. He helped his dad with a project and I sat around the house with his mom and 3 year old nephew all weekend. His dad kept telling his nephew that I was Auntie Monique and his grandmother kept thinking I was his wife. As nice as all that sounded, it wasn't true. No marriage for us. He's not ready for that. We did come up with at least one name: Kendall. The same name I've been sayiing from the beginning. And would you believe that my mother agrees that the boy should be named after his father?! That would make this child a 3rd! No way. What happened to individuality? You can't even have that these days.

My friend Lex and his girlfriend are about 25 weeks along now with their baby girl. I would love to share that kind of news but what's the point? I guess I'm still avoiding those, "whose the father" questions. *sigh* That's another story for another time.

We're supposed to start buying stuff this month. I would love to brand new stuff, but we might just get Brianna's stroller and playpen. It would save some money but I didn't want my child's first belongings to be handme downs. LOL Again, we'll need two of everything so I'll just give to him and I get the new stuff. I keep telling myself I won't get stressed out but I just dont' know how I'm going to fit this baby plus one dresser in my bedroom. Jesus, Lord, help me. I just pray that I can find a two bedroom at a reasonable price by July 1 so I can move in before the baby gets here. Since it doesn't seem like K and I would even live together, it's going to prove challenging. I'll have to get rid of my internet access and find a way to cut corners. Not to mention the daycare we'll be paying. It's expensive for newborns. *sigh* But this little boy is worth every penny and headache I'm enduring and the rest that are to come.

Other than that, I feel pretty good. Just anxious to meet him (but not before his time) and something solid in place.

Just another day in the neighborhood

This little boy was kicking me all evening. I guess I was moving too much for him or something because he did not want to stay still. *sigh* I forget that he's the boss for the next couple of weeks. LOL.

We're heading to MS on Thursday/Friday. K's family has been calling me non-stop wanting to know what the baby is. I'm not going to tell it, per his instructions. He can share the news with his family as I did with mine. I can't wait for everyone to know it and it just be out there. I bought another bib last night. I says, "I love Daddy" on it. LOL. It was so cute I couldn't pass it up.

I feel ok today. Craving a cinnabon or a cupcake still. Not sure why but I'm bringing some in tomorrow. Me and these cravings. Not sure what to eat for dinner tonight but i'll figure it out. I need to remember to call my cousin Mandy to find out what the deal is with her dinner tomorrow night. Someone commented today that I'm really starting to look pregnant. LOL. I guess it is a bit more obvious now considering the stomach and all. Dang, I'm pregnant for real. Speaking of which, I need to be figuring out what I'm going to wear to work tomorrow. Ok, let me head home and do something with my hair.

He knows!!!

I finally told K the baby was a boy. Man, did I think he was going to jump out of his skin. He was so near tears that it was funny. Needless to say, he thought I was going to say girl but I said, nope it's a boy. I made him close his eyes and put the "Thank heaven for little boys" bib on his chest. He decided he was going to make his family wait until we got to MS for before he told them. I don't blame him. They've been calling me all weekend so I'm out of this fight. LOL.



Baby Boy has been moving and kicking all day. My stomach feels harder than normal but the doctor said everything was ok. I'm just glad to know that all I've gained is 3 pounds and that he's doing ok. Thank you Jesus.



I'm dying to go shopping for baby stuff but trying to pace myself until we buy this furniture. Speaking of which, I need to talk to him about that anyway. Well, let me drag my tired self and this baby home and then to mall. I've been craving a cinnabon all day.

It's a....

I meant to post this on March 20th but I got so wrapped up in other things.

Well, K and I went to the doctor's and they did the level II ultrasound. Everything looked great. Apparently the little tike is in prayer position facing my back with knees and arms bent. LOL. Go figure. My child is praying for its crazy parents. The tech wasn't able to get a good picture of the heart so I have to back for that ont he 31st.

When it came time to find out the sex, K couldn't decide and was going to leave out of the room. Well, I started to cry and got a little upset because I wanted to know and didn't want him to step out. The tech said she wouldnt do it unless we could both decide. Instead, she printed the pic, put it in an envelope and gave it to me. We got in the parking lot and I wanted to know, and so the argument went. Well, he let me peek and I saw it.

IT'S A BOY!!!!

Yes, I am having a son. I haven't told him and he doesn't want to know, but I'm going to on Easter Sunday. I don't want him to not know and plus we're going to see his family next week and they are expecting to know something. I told my family but his family doesn't kow. Im so happy and excited. I bought two little jumpers that say, "My daddy is #1" and "Mommy loves me" for the kid to wear. I can't believe it. Lord, I'm having a son! I'm going to post the pictures to my photobucket account. I can't believe it. Thank the Lord.

Officially 20 weeks

I am officially 20 weeks today. Yes, baby dearest, we made it to 20 weeks. Thank you Jesus. I want to celebrate by buying something butttt.....considering how I don't know the sex of this child, I'm going to hold out until Thursday.

I feel ok today. Had a really good breakfast, I was late on eating lunch (like way too late) and have no clue about dinner at this point. Right now, I just want to go home, curl up in bed with K and do nothing else. I'm really really excited about my appointment on Thursday. At first I didn't want to know the sex but I'm at the point where I feel I need to know. Childbirth is magical and I feel that I may feel a bit more connected to the baby if I knew he/she was a he or she. LOL

I read a very touching story on MDC today. Apparently this woman is going to have to go through her pregnancy alone from this point because her SO is acting like a jerk. Her story sounds so much like mine and K's. Not that we're perfect but I understand her pain and how this hurts. I told her that I understand her pain and that she will get through it. Lord knows I don't know how I would have made it through all those times with K. Like I told her, I'm grateful for supportive family and friends because I could have choked the shyt out of him.

Speaking of him, Sunday night we were lying in bed and he says to me "I was telling my mom how I'm really excited now. That I've enjoyed shopping and looking at baby furniture." *blank stare* Did K just say that? I mean, the guy barely gives a reaction to anything and here he is talking about how he's excited about our child coming. I suppose it's gotten real to him but that does not excuse any past stuff. No sir. Not all the mess he had me going through early on and even recently at the beginning of the month. I don't know what he's doing when he's not with me but I'm not going to spend my nights trying to figure it out. I can't take that kind of heartache and pain right now. Not while I have this life in me growing.

I think I'm going to go buy another pack of diapers today. I'm just trying to start stockpiling while I can. More diapers, wipes and detergent. You can get all you want of those.

I'm still leaking milk and my breast are so itchy! My stomach has finally started to itch and that black line is starting. *sigh* this pregnancy is so real, I mean, for real for real. Heck, I need more pants and need to get some because my belly is expanding by the second. I guess I'll hit up BCF at some point this week.

I went by the bank today to cash those checks and the teller was God-sent. She told me about this program called Way2Save. Thank goodness for that because it takes $1 from each purchase and puts it into a savings account. By the end of the year if you've accured about $300, Wachovia will match that. Is that not the most perfect thing for the baby? I'll just let the money build and use it as an account that goes for the baby. I love it! On another "I love it" note, I got my student loan payments down to $61 dollars a month! ThankyouJesus! Now, if I can just get me and this child a house or bigger apartment, that would be freaking awesome!

Awful feeling Friday

I feel like crap this morning. I should have known it was going to be like this when I woke up slightly naueous and then could barely get out of bed. I had some eggs and turkey sausage for breakfast and I wonder if that's contributing to the nausea. I'm trying to hang in here until at least late afternoon but I don't know. Lord, just let me make it to late afternoon/lunch time. Maybe some air will help.

Last night I was craving fried oysters but settled for some fried shrimp tempura sushi at Shout. Let me just say that it was wonderful! I haven't had sushi that good in a long time. Kudos to them. I'll definitely be ordering that when I go back.

Interesting thing happened this morning as I was waiting on my food. One of my colleagues comes up and asks when I ever stop feeding my baby. After a good laugh I said that since I feel better about eating, I'm going to eat whenever I'm hungry. So we discussed weight, nursing and all that good stuff. She kept referring to my baby as a "she" and I said I don't find out until next week. Both she and another lady told me not to do it. They said that it's such a special gift from God to even know the sex of the baby and that we should be surprised. Part of me wants to be surprised but I guess peer pressure is a mofo because both of our families keep pushing up about it. I'm still considering my option of having the nurse write it down, seal it in an envelope and give it to me. K and I can find out when we want to know but I don't know. I'm still debating this. I'll talk to him a little more about it another time.

The big day (next Thursday) is next week. Right now my focus is getting my money together to buy this furniture. I may just go ahead and order the playpen myself and let him get the other stuff. I don't know. I have too much stuff to figure out at this point. It doesn't help that feel awful right now.

Well, let me go. The baby is kicking and I need some water.

Craving Fried Oysters!

Baby is has been moving all day and I'm craving some fried oysters from Pappaduex's. I would even go as far as to go to the farmers market, buy my own and fried them myself! Gosh, I'm so freaking hungry today it's not even funny. I'll just email K tonight and tell him how bad I'm feening for some and I'll see if he'll fry me some this weekend or something.

Baby is has been kicking and flipping around. Especially when I was eating this spaghetti stuff during lunch. LOL. I don't know if it was the spice or what but he/she started flipping and kicking like crazy. I don't know what I'm going to eat at this happy hour thing today but I'm going to tear some food up! LOL.

I've tried contacting the hospital a couple of times to sign up for child birth classes but the lady has not called me back. I'm tired of waiting on them. It's such a frustrating thing. When I explained to the receptionist that I've called several time and the lady never returned my called, her reply was that "she always does that but she'll call back". *insert blank stare here* WTF?!

I'm not going to get upset about it because if I go into labor and that lady is there, we will have a mofo problem, feel me?

Nothing new to report. Just craving fried oysters like a mad woman and getting ready to leave work for the day. Unless this baby kicks my hand tonight, I'll post tomorrow.

19 week shuffle

I just learned that there will be an outage tonight at 7 so I figured I might as well go ahead and post now. I'm doing ok. I finally remembered to eat lunch on time for a change! Yea! Last night I went to bed around 6:30 and didn't wake up until 6 the next morning. I think both baby and I were exhausted after such a trying day. I was just happy to run out of here on time with no delay.

So far no cravings today. K and I are going to the Hawks game tonight. I have to leave work on time to pick up the tickets and then meet up with him over by his office. Nothing else major going on. Just keeping things pretty basic. I do need to make sure I eat something before we do anything tonight. I've already requested some nachos so let's see if he remembers what I said about that.

On a lighter note, I saved some extra money so I'm going to give him $300 to get started with the purchasing of baby stuff. I figure with that, he can buy the stroller and the playpen with some extra left over so we can buy the crib and stuff. I swear, I can't believe it's time to start buying furniture already. Speaking of which, I need to remember to make a bank run here soon.

My pants are beginning to fit a little too tight again. I really need to get some more but I'm trying to hold out for it to warm up so I can just buy dresses and skirts that I know I can fit after delivery. I took a stab at guessing gender today. One of my co-workers and I were discussing how to tell if it's a boy or girl, she said that since I'm mostly in the front, it's probably a boy because I'm not showing anywhere else on me. Who knows, maybe this is a boy. I feel a stronger feeling about this being a boy than a girl, but we'll see. I would love to have my girl first but hey, a healthy baby is enough for me. Boy or girl.

19 weeks tomorrow!

Hard to believe I will be 19 weeks, well, I am 19 weeks today. Wow! Halfway there next week. It's still surreal to me sometimes that I'm pregnant. I can't believe. Of course I feel the kicks and the movement but I dont know. Sometimes it still doesn't seem real. I think when we go to the doctor next week and I find out the sex, it will seem more real to me then.

We went looking at baby furniture this weekend. It was a bit overwhelming but we narrowed the selections down to a few and have decided to start purchasing stuff next month. The biggest challenge is going to be for the crib. We have to make sure the doggone thing will fit in my bedroom more than anything. That and the fact that we get a dresser that will hold all the clothes. There's just so much to take into consideration.

K has mentioned that he's going to move closer to me. I think that's the best idea that way we won't have to keep dealing with that commute between both of our places. Not too sure where he's going to move to though but hey, I'll let him figure it out. No new cravings this week. I'm not partial to any particular food but I do hope I've gained a few pounds like I'm supposed to. I swear, that 4-5 pound loss really had me worried. I'm trying not to let it get to me though. I do need to call Kaiser and find out where I need to report to for this ultrasound. I assume that since it's a level II I might need to actually go to radiology. *sigh* More things to figure out but it's all worth it.

To my unborn child,

Today was one of the most emotionally trying evenings of my life. In my anger and pain, I said somethings that may have hurt but never once did I say I regret you. Regardless of what happens between your father and I, I want you to promise me that you will be an honest, decent human being. That you will not do things in life only for your own personal gain, but that you do them with a pure heart. My parents and family raised me in that way and I suppose that's why people mistake my kindness for weakness. It's not. I love you so much and do not want to see you travel down a road others before you have and become lost to the darkness. I want you to stay in the light and always be pure of heart and mind. There will be people in your life who will tell you to lie, or tell you to tell people what they need to hear. No, I want you to be that one individual that will always tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. I want you to value open and honest people, and surround yourself with them. I want you love deeply and wholeheartly and you shall blessed with that in return. I want you to know that when you make a mistake, the first and best thing you can do is admit you were wrong. I never want to see you go through the pain and hurt that I have endured in the past year because of someone else. I refuse to let that happen to you. You are my world and I love you so much.

Be the person you want the world to become. The change starts with you.

Love,
Mommy

I'm towards the end of week 18. It seems like I just turned 18 weeks and then on Tuesday I'll be 19 weeks. Dang this pregnancy is flying by. I guess I'll have to start buying stuff now. At least the stroller and the carrier set. Speaking of which, I need to talk to him about that stuff soon anyway. Seems like he keeps putting it off but I need to know so I can have my money together. I'm ever grateful for jury duty so at least have $200 to use towards baby goods.

The baby has been very active today. Kicking and moving all morning but no movement this afternoon. That's partially my fault because I didn't eat this afternoon. I just wasn't hungry and didn't know what I wanted. I've been craving some iHOP but I would prefer Chow Baby or Hot Stixs. I sure hope he suggests we go eat before the game but I doubt it.

I was so restless last night. I don't know if it's because I took a nap yesterday afternoon or what but I could not get to sleep last night. The baby was moving but not as much but I think it was just me. It's still really hard to get comfortable to any extent. I swear, men just don't know the things we women go through. I have to buy some more pants because NONE of my current ones are fitting unfortunately. I guess I'm going to get bigger than I anticipated. Heck, I need to figure out what I'm going to wear to this game Saturday if it's going to be 40 degrees outside. I guess I know what I'll be doing.

The baby is moving. I just ate some peanuts and there he/she goes squirming. LOL I love feeling the baby move. I've even figured out the Mountain Dew is what will get him/her kicking up a storm. LOL I need to make sure we play that game every now and then. Speaking of games, dill pickle potatoe chips are the shyt! Whenever I eat them, he/she goes ballistic. I mean kick and moving all over. I think we like that snack. Ok, we'll off to DOTS and maybe Target. I need to get the curtain rod and some other stuff so K can hang the curtains for me tonight.

I'm about two days behind. My internal clock is totally off since I've serving jury duty for the past couple of days.

Here we are at week 18 and baby is doing great. Moving and kicking all the time. I've even figured out the trick to get the little bugger to move: Mountain Dew. Take a swig of one, lie on your left side and wait. It was so funny because K and were laughing about how much of our child's personality is already here but the baby isn't outside of the womb yet. Speaking of K, yes we are on speaking terms but I'm not going to push anything.

We're going to see the baby's paternal grandparents later this month. Luckily, we'll know the sex then and can share the news with his family. I'm totally knowing this baby is going to be a girl. I think I might cry when the tech reveals the sex of the baby to me. "Would you like to know the sex? " "Yes" "It's a.................." I wonder how K will react? He just knows this baby is a boy. LOL.

Other than that, I'm doing fine. Back to my pickle cravings. I also have an addiction to strawberry sundaes from Dairy Queen. I've also been wanting some Chow Baby. That would be delicious! Or Hot Stixs. Ummmmm. I sometimes wake up in the middle of thenight cravingfood. Of course I just slip some water and go back to bed but I still want food.

The fatigue came back strong this week. I've been hitting the sack by 8:30 or 9 but one can never have too much sleep. Anyway, I think I'll hit the sack now so that baby and I can do our McDonald's burrito in the morning before court.

18 weeks tomorrow

Tomorrow marks the start of week 18 for me. Baby is going great. Kicking and moving up a storm. I drank a Mountain Dew today and those things are laced with caffeine. Needless tosay, mini me started moving and kicking like crazy. I guess that jolt was a bit much. I thought it was funny but I'll have to remember to limit my jokes like that.

I had planned on a sensible dinner of Hamburger Helper tonight with my family but looks like it will be a Big Mac and fries for me. I really wanted to do the sensible dinner but that Big Mac is sounding better by the minute. Since I don't have to be in order until 9 tomorrow morning. I can sleep until 7 and then leave by 8 and get there by 8:30. Baby and I are going to have a chill out night while momma cleans house.

I've decided to hold out on getting new furniture. I want to be able to pay cash for the baby furniture but first things first, some room has to be made in my apartment, no joke. So I plan on moving this storage containers, probably, myself at some point here soon. I know some folks are going to be made at me but I gotta do what I have to do. I don't have a man around so I'm in this alone.

Speaking of alone, I need to get my lonely butt on the road and get home and feed my child. Dinner is calling my name. My stomach is growling and I think Baby K is hungry.

Well, it's March! I can't believe it. Seems like it was just December not too long ago. This is the start of week 18 for me. Baby is kicking and moving up a storm. It's pretty exciting. THis week's goal is to eliminate spicy food. Sooooo I have a thing for spicy food and I know it's not good for the baby, man, I crave it. LOL. I need to up my carrot intake and plan to load up on them this week. Or at least carrot juice.

I visited my grandmother today. I was so happy to see her. I saw my cousin's baby, who is the most adorable baby in the world. I can't wait for my own child to get here. For now, I'm just going to enjoy the pregnancy. Speaking of pregnancy, K was here last night rubbing my stomach. I won't go into detail about what has transpired but he was here. Enough said.

My big plans for tonight are to indulge in some reality tv and then pass out before getting up for jury duty in the morning. Baby's first day at court! LOL