AF has arrived!

Soooooo, AF decided to show up and show face on Thursday. It looks like this was yet another long cycle for me - 39 days. My last one was 55 days and prior to that was 28. Sigh. I swear we have absolutely no control over our bodies LOL

I'm feeling positive and hopeful though. I have a feeling I will ovulate this month since according to my ovulation tests last month, I didn't. Getting pregnant with K was nowhere near this hard. I guess it isn't when aren't trying. When you are consciously making an effort to get pregnant, that's when things change. Nonetheless, I am very hopeful and positive.

For some reason, I have been drawn the name Maya. Lord knows I don't care of this kid is a boy or girl this time, but I have an inkling that we may end up with a stubborn little girl to compliment our stubborn little boy. Heaven help us!

Trying To Conceive

I was on the fence about restarting this blog back up but I realized that I needed to. I needed to get some things off my chest and journal this journey to motherhood for the second time around.

When I started his blog, I had just found out I was 5 weeks pregnant with my now 5 year old son and had no clue what the future held in store. Now, here we are 5 years later I am married to the love of my life (Kendall's father), living in a beautiful home, healthy, happy and content with life. And yet, we have this longing for another baby that is strong.

We have been married for 133 days and we have been trying to conceive much longer than that. At first I wasn't on the fence about trying to get pregnant before our wedding but after talking things through with my husband, it made total sense.

We are now in our 6th month of trying to conceive and with no success yet. I am grateful for sites like Mothering.com that have been so helpful with information and serving as a sounding board when I get frustrated. I'm also grateful to my wonderful husband for remaining positive and hopeful that I will be pregnant soon.

I guess the journey begins....again....

5 years later....

When I come back to this blog, I'm amazed each and every time about my pregnancy. First off, my last post was 3 years ago?! Don't hurt me. LOL SEcondly, we are now married and parents to a soon-to-be five year old little guy that is so totally awesome you can't help but love him.

It's hard to believe that when I started this blog I had just found out I was pregnant with my son, whom I will call Rockstar now. Fast forward almost 5 years later and here we are planning for a second child. My how times have changed...

K and I have been married for precisely 23 days and it has been wonderful. Although we started trying for a baby a month before the wedding, it has been something we have both wanted. I can't lie and say we weren't a little disappointed when Aunt Flo showed up this month but I get it. You can't rush or predict perfection so you let it go at its own pace.

True be told, this is the first month of actual trying and we'll see what happens. I've rejoined Mothering.com. I had such a great support system there with my last pregnancy and I'm looking forward to connecting with other mamas during this next one (see, I'm claiming it).

God has shown me such favor in life and will continue to do so.

Almost 2 years old

My baby will be 2 years old next week! *insert tears* I can't believe it. He has grown up so fast but I'm glad I've been capturing all this the entire time. He is now talking up a storm and head over hells in love with his Pa-Pa (grandpa), Mi-Mi (grandma), Dada (his dad), and Elmo. LOL It tickles me when he wakes up every morning and says "Hi Mommy", lies back down and goes to sleep. LOL

We're still working on the potty training thing. I'm trying not to get frustrated about it though. My son is definitely a free spirit who likes to do things in his own time so I'm not going to push him. I'm just going to love him, kiss him and encourage him like I always do. The theme for his birthday this year will be Elmo. I have been all over the city tracking down Elmo stuff and found it all at Party City. Now that I bought a house I am going to have the party in my garage with family and friends. I know it will be hot as the devil out there but the kids are going to have a blast with the moonwalk.

Pee pee in the potty!

Baby K is now 22 months on and only June 4, while at daycare, he pee pee'd in the potty for the first time. I screamed when his teacher told me. I am so proud of my little guy. Next up to get him some more training pants and get him on the potty more at home. He's put on there 4 times a day at school so I need to do the same thing at home. He's definitely talking up a storm now and all kinds of fun. He's still not quite sleeping through the night and I'm not sure how to combat that one. I'm considering changing his bed back into the crib but he loves to climb stuff and I know for a fact he will climb out of that bed. I just know it. he's done it before.

Now that we are quickly approaching two I have finally gotten around to painting his bedroom in our new house. It's Carolina Blue but a little bit lighter. I'm going with a Toy Story theme for his bedroom so gone are the animals. :=( I can't believe my baby is growing up so fast! It makes me long for another one but I think I'll wait until I have the same last night as someone if you catch my drift.

We're gearing up for his dad's family reunion next month. I haven't been formally asked to go but I assume since my child will be there, I will be there. I'm sorry but I'm not comfortable with letting him go off somewhere. Nope. Not happening. I am excited that he gets to meet and see this other side of his family. Shoot, there are folks his dad probably doesn't know. LOL Either way, we'll be in Mississippi in July for that and back in Mississippi in November for Thanksgiving since we didn't go last year. All in all, things are starting to come together for us.

19 months old

My handsome son is now 19 months old and such a lady killer! Let me update you on his latest antics:

• He is still obessed with Italian food. Spaghetti, pizza, you name it. He loves it!
• We are starting potty training and I feel like a failure because I can't seem to get him to go. Sigh. I'll keep trying.
• His sleep habits are the worst! He does so well at school but at home, he wakes up at least twice during the night for juice or to get in bed with me. I don't get it. I've tried letting him cry it out but I can't deal with screaming at that hour.
• He climbed out of his crib a few months ago so his crib is now converted to a toddler bed. We moved it into my bedroom so hopefully that will help him when it comes to sleeping.
• He LOVES to fix things around the house. If he sees a hammer or screwdriver, he insists in helping with whatever it is that is being repaired.
• He LOVES to call his Uncle TJ's name. He swears everyone is TJ and lights up when he sees him.
• He's learned to jump from the step stool onto the bed and loves to walk on the coffee table. I have the protypical little boy.

Other than that, things are going good. I did get a report from his teacher that he likes to beat up on the littles girls but mommy will have to change all of that. We don't want any Ike Turners up in my house. Speaking of my house, now that I'm a homeowner, he is having a ball with all the space that is available. I love to watch him run freely around the house. K and I are still talking about taking him to Disney next year. I'm pretty excited about it. Hopefully we can get both sides of the family to come along for it too. It will be a GREAT family vacation.

I'm loving being a mother though I must admit I AM EXHAUSTED! So why do I still long for yet another child? LOL K will be 3 next year and I wanted to have another child around that time. Lest we not forget that I am not married so being married by then would be an added bonus for another baby. LOL Let me stop kidding myself. K will probably be my only one and guess what? I'm going to spoil him rotten.

13 months old

Since my last post was unfortunately deleted, I am going to attempt this again. Hello all! Here are with Kendall approaching 14 months old on October 4. I can't begin to describe how fast he's grown and how much I am in love with him. Sure times are trying (still not sleeping the whole night sometimes, biting now, a little bossy and VERY much stubborn) but he's still the best thing to ever happen to me.

Tonight K and I are taking him to his first Braves game. I am sooooo excited! I have his little Braves outfit all together and ready to go. I need to get a Braves t-shirt for myself to wear to the game. I am too ready for this.

We are almost completely done with bottles. I still give him one in the middle of the night but I'm trying to get away from that. In terms of sleeping, it varies. Some night's he will sleep the whole night, other nights he's all over the place with waking up a couple of times a night. I'm not sure what else I could do to help him get on a better sleep rountine. Right now he starts to get tired around 8 and is usually knocked out by 8:30. I've been trying to keep him up until 9 so that he will sleep a little longer at night. I don't know. I feel like I'm doing something wrong but my mom says every child is different and that I just have to take it in stride. I'm taking in stride losing sleep, and he's getting all of his ALL.THE.TIME. so not fair. LOL

Other than that, mommyhood is grand. Can't wait to have another baby in about two years. Hopefully I'll be married by then so we'll see.