I don't know what happened last night but depression just took over me. I spent most of the evening laying on the sofa just thinking about all kinds of stuff. I didn't call anyone and no one called me but rather, I just sat there thinking about the past, present and the future. I slept through the whole night again and awoke up at 6, refreshed and ready to go...until my feet hit the floor and the nausea took over. This m/s is getting worse or something. I like crap right now and just want to go home and get in the bed. I hate that I'm going through this alone but it's just me and the baby. Of course I'm not going to dwell on that because we are having an awesome time bonding. I can feel he/she fluttering around in there. Its such a strange and cool feeling.

I'm 10 weeks today. Amazing how much time has flown by. I can't believe this time next week I'll be 11 weeks and then 12 weeks. Heck, they can tell me what I'm having soon. Of course I don't want to know but we'll see. I haven't talk to K since Monday. I just don't get him. One minute he's all excited and then now he's MIA. *sigh* Nonetheless, baby and I are just fine. I find it strange that my dad has not called me or spoken to me since before New Years. I guess he's still not cool with this baby thing. You really learn whose there and who isn't there for you when it comes down to it.

I was thinking about getting away for the weekend. Heading south to Florida to visit some friends. I need something to cheer me up. Of course the money is an issue but I think I can figure some stuff out. I may leave early on Friday and just go home and lay on the sofa. I need a break. I feel like crap. But this blog is all about the positive and crazy journey into motherhood so I will not dwell on the negative crap in my life.

I've found myself strangely bothered by clutter. I always was but other women on MDC seem to be too. I thought it was just an OCD but it's not. LOL I guess it's a pregnancy thing. I'm also feeling slightly big. I took some belly shots last night to keep. I'll add the link later. 10 weeks and my stomach has made it's arrival. LOL. *waving at the belly*