30 week photos

I had my 13 year old brother take pictures for me today. I normally do it myself but I was at my parents house and figured what the heck. Saves me the energy from having to prop things up at home. Anyway, here are the pictures. I'm heading out of town tomorrow to visit K's family.

Queen of mood swings

One thing that sucks about pregnancy are the hormonal changes you go through. One second you're happy, the next you want to kick EVERYONE's butt. I was fine earlier today until my friends and I realized that we may not be able to do both lunch and the SATC movie on Friday. We worked it out but the whole situation left me in a kind of a funky mood. Not to mention I had to drop off the favors for my shower to my friend Sheena and pick up my invitations (which they printed wrong 3 times!) and get back to work. In the midst of all this, I had to eat something because I was feeling nauseous and Kendall started kicking the crap out of me. Again, enough to make you want to say screw everyone and just go home.

I slept pretty good last night although I wish I had gone to bed earlier. I was exhausted. I took a nap at my parent's house yesterday and totally missed my brother's music recital. I'm definitely going home today to take a nap so I can work on invites tonight. Regardless of what's going on, I'm walking out of this office at 3:30 today. Screw that. I did manage to get all the labels printed and will drop everything off to my mom tonight.

Last night I missed K. I know he stayed at my house for the past three days but I missed sleeping with him. I sleep so much better when he's there. Of course I want him to enjoy all the space he can get because come July 1st, I'm moving in. There is no way I will be at home 9 months pregnant, waiting for my water to break by myself. *note to self: pay rent when I get back in town* Dang, I also need to get a gift for his nephew. Between my cousin Molly and his nephew, I'll be hitting up WalMart Thursday night.

I've been having some swelling of the feet this week. I had to finally revert back to my flipflops. It's like I have little piglets on my lower body. I try to keep them elevated when I can but I forget. Go figure. Well, I'm struggling to stay awake here at work so I guess I'll go hand out my thank you cards from my shower here at work. It will be some good exercise for me. I swear as soon as I get home, I'm sleeping until 6.

30 weeks (7.5 months)

Praise God I made it safely to 30 weeks. I'm feeling both excited and nervous at this point. part of me is anxious to meet this little guy and the other part of me is hoping he just stays in there. LOL. Although I know that's not realistic, it's still a nice thought.

Ihad a prettygood weekend. Friday night I spent at home unable to sleep so I did some cleaning. Saturday my friend Keith had a cookout. It was ok. That situation I was kinda upset about last week was dealt with. I won't go into details about it but I will say that I put my feelings out there and told someone about themself. End of discussion. Saturday night Kendall decided that he wanted to keep me and K awake so he moved to the top of my stomach and stretched completely out. Yes, completely. K had to getup and turn on the light to see it. It was so weird. I told you, this kid has his own agenda with things. I'm not even mad at him because he's running the show right now. Sunday we spent with my family at my parent's house. It was the first time K got to meet the Reese side of the family and everyone liked him. Whew. I know how crazy my family can be and thank goodness everyone was on their best behavior. My mom even said my cousin told her that she liked him. Sunday night we went home and passed out. Monday we went back to my parents for lunch and then headed back to my house to just rest and be lazy. Again, nothing major but kicking back.

We're heading to MS on Friday. I'm sure it will be quite a weekend. I'm definitely alot more pregnant so I know K's family will be happy to see us. the next time they see us, Kendall will be here in tow. Hard to believe that Sunday is June 1. I'm not even packed for the hospital yet. I feel like I should be but I dont know where to start. I'm going to work on it tonight so I can get everything together. Speaking of which, I need to figure out what he's going to wear home and in his first picture. Again, I might wait until after the baby shower to do all of this. Yea, I think I just might do that and just pack my toileteries while I'm thinking about it.

At my doctor's appointment the other week she told me that I had gained 8 pounds, half of which is his weight the rest of the fluids in me. I so wanted a sweet potatoe pie yesterday but K talked me out of it. I was a little upset but later that night I asked him to go get me some grapefruits I was craving. I'm going to try tonight when I get home from my brother's recital. I forgot what time my mom said it started but I'll be there either way.

Well, let me get to work. You know how it is when you come back from a holiday. I'll be posting pictures this week at some point. I also have to figure out when I'm going to do my belly cast. Gotta get with the girls on that.

I can't sleep. the time is 11:16 pm and I can not go to sleep. It's not like I need to rush to bed or anything considering how tonight is Friday but I do feel like I should be knocked out. I guess since my mind is heavy, I can't truly rest the way I want. I was thinking of going to WalMart and doing some shopping. Part of me wants to call K and tell him that I'm coming over. I know I'll sleep great with him. As a matter of fact, I think that's it. I don't want to sleep alone. I sleep so good when I sleep with him. I guess I feel a bit more safe and relaxed.

My baby shower at work today was awesome. I didn't get a whole bunch of gifts but I got some great ones. I'll have to send out thank you cards as soon as I have some time next week. I'm a little more motivated to go out and start buying stuff now myself. Which is part of my plan for going to Walmart at midnight anyway.

The printers sent me a proof of the invitation and they messed it up. *sigh* good thing my mom checked it and called me because I would have totally forgotten about it until tonight. i'll try to get over there tomorrow to ensure that they get it together. Lord knows I can't have jacked up invitations and I need them by the end of the week next week. Which also reminds me that I need to pick up labels.

Actually let me go ahead and admit this now: I'm lonely. I hate sitting here at night alone. That's why I'm constantly going over to my parents house. Granted they live around the corner but I'm still lonely as all get out.I just wish K were here with me. Ok, ok, I need to get over it! I suppose I'm rambling now because I'm tired. Which I am. I just want to go to bed with him and forget about everything else. My friend Keith is having a cookout tomorrow and I know he'll be dog tired when its all over since he's helping him cook. Let me get up and go to Walmart. I don't know who I'm kidding. I can't focus and maybe going shopping will help.

29 weeks

I turned 29 weeks and are amazed that 30 weeks is next week. Geez where is the time going? These weeks are flying by way too fast. I feel as though I'm really miss being pregnant. I'm glad I've enjoyed this time as much as I have. Sure it was a rocky road at certain points, but for the most part I'm ok.

I had my doc appt yesterday and I just barely passed my glucose test. Had it been up a point, I would have had to do a 3 hour test. That drink was awful. It tasted like chalky orange soda. The blood test also revealed that I may be anemic. Meaning, I need to up the iron and calcium. I knew this would happen considering how I don't drink enough milk. I'm going try to increase it naturally then try the iron vitamins. I heard those things can make you constipated so I'm trying to hold out on them.

My midwife recommended that I go ahead and get my bag packed, cut out junk food and keep doing what I'm doing. I've gained 8 pounds to date, which means half of the weight is his. I think he's weighing around 3-4 lbs now. I sure hope this little boy isn't a huge baby but I do want him at a healthy weight.

I can't believe today is Wednesday! Gosh the week has flown by. My baby shower here at work is on Friday. That should be an interesting day. I just think it's sweet that the people I work with are throwing me one. It's just too sweet. I can't wait! This makes the whole pregnancy experience real. I'll just have to figure out how I'm going to get all this stuff in the house. and who knows, I may not end up with a whole lot of stuff. I sure hope I do though! I'm so excited.

Other than that, no new news to report. Just trying to take things one day at a time and get ready for baby boy. I've been having second thoughts about my crib though. I keep hearing how boys are rough on furniture so I may have to retalk this thing with Ken about the crib set I selected. I don't know. I'm going to do some research this afternoon and see what he says. It may be nothing but I don't want to buy something Kendall tears up as soon as he starts walking. We'll see.

I'll be doing my 30 week photo shoot next week. I'm going to have my brother take the pictures this time. We'll probably do some outdoor nature type shoot. I saw something like that on Mothering.com and it was beautiful. Now, I'll just have to find a park to do this at.

I figured that since I had some free time before my afternoon meetings start, I would update my blog. Nothing much to report. I finally decided on invitations this weekend. Well, rather, my mom and Estelle said, "we're going with these and this is final". I'm not complaining. All I have to do it take the doggone things to the printers and get them printed. All that other stuff is in their hands. I guess I should get with my game folks and figure out what kinds of prizes they may need for the games. I'll do that in June.

Other than that, things are ok. I wento Lex and Shay's baby shower/pool party and everyone finally realized I was pregnant. Yup, its all out. My friend Keith took it the hardest. He was hurt that I hadn't told him sooner and it kinda hurt my feelings that he was really upset. Nothing I can really do about that. Oh well. It's out there now so its onward to the shower. Shay got tons of great gifts and outfits. I'm sure I'll have the same for my little prince...who currently does not have a middle name. I sure hope K has been thinking about this middle name. It's bugging me but I would prefer Bernard but he's totally against.

Saturday night was the cutest thing because K was talking to my belly for half an hour. And Kendall actually responded and moved. I told him that since his voice has so much bass in it, he can't help but to know it. He talked to him for so long that Kendall didn't stop moving for a long time. We couldn't even spend any time "alone" because the kid was awake. K kept asking, "Is this how it will be when he gets here? No mommy-daddy time?" LOL. I said, "Yup, pretty much. If you would have left him alone to sleep, it wouldn't have been an issue." I'm just glad he's lot more comfortable with things. That stuff that was on my mind last week is still there. Again, I won't go into detail but I will be mindful of how things are.

We still haven't orderd furniture yet. Again, this is totally a K thing but considering how I had some contractions Friday night, he needs to get it together. No stress, no stress. I just can't believe I'm having a baby. I'm actually getting bigger each week. Some days it seems like I dont' have a stomach and others its like ddddayyyyuummmm! Today is definitely a yoga day for me because I feel so tight in my hip joints. Considering how eventful Saturday was for me, a good stretch is necessary ;)

Well, let me get back to work. Need to start getting it together before my department meeting. 29 weeks tomorrow!

It's Friday, what else is there to say?

What I have done this Friday? Absolutely nothing! I spent most of the morning looking at shower invitiations yet again. By this afternoon, I said forget it and told my mom and aunt to go look at them. I was sick of looking at these dayum things. Nonetheless, they are picking them out tomorrow and it will be done. Thank goodness. Next on the baby shower agenda is picking up decorations and such. That should be a breeze.

I have to attend a baby shower tomorrow for my friends Lex and Shay. I really don't feel like going (isn't that awful) but I said I would show. I may just hang for an hour before dipping out. I'm sure there will be tons of folks there and I don't really feel like being bothered. Nothing personal. Just don't feel like going. Personally I just dont feel like being bothered all the way around. Last night I didn't even bother answered the phone for two phone calls. I just needed some Monique-time. I got a lot of stuff on my mind and don't need folks barking in my ear about stuff. Just giving me some space and I'll holla at you next week.

I'm still not sure what I'm going to get as a gift. I'm going to the mall after work and pick up some stuff and create a little basket or something. Anyway, I feel ok today. Kendall kicked me so hard after I ate lunch that it took my breath away. This little boy is going to be a busy body, that's for sure. No big plans for the evening. I finished my laundry last night so I'll probably just do some cleaning and putting clothes away. I'll probably also crack open a couple of movies I've been meaning to watch and wash my hair.

I called my job's insurance company to get some info about pay during maternity leave. What I pretty got was that depending on the type of birth, that will determine how long they pay me for. So it's either 6-8 week pay. Which is fine, I can take two extra weeks with no pay. I'll just save my duckets and post up at home. I was really hoping to have my stimulus check money by now so that I could use it towards bills while I'm out but I'll figure it out. God will make away. I suppose it is kinda hard to do this and not be married. It's all good. I'll work it out. Luckily I've been saving a little money here and there for a baby account. Just never know these days.

I had a dream that I saw Kendall the other night. He was born and I was changing him while he was lying on my bed. Hard to believe that in just a short time I'll actually be doing that. Wow. Me, changing a baby that is mine. This makes me think about Sierra. I'll have to call Red and try to meet up with them tomorrow.

Well, let me finish up a bit of work and head out for the day. Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Thursday already?!

This was the title of my post in my personal blog because I'm still amazed that Thursday is here. I feel like it was just the weekend and here it is back around again. Nothing really to update today. I went to bed last night at 9:30 and actually got up at 6 ok. I was still a bit groggy but I have a feeling I won't get in until late tomorrow morning. Seems I just can't get enough sleep regardless of what time I go to bed.

I was also really nauseous by the time I got home. I knew I should have ate something but I made myself wait 2.5 hours just so I could eat while I watched tv. Just sad, I know. Today I will not make that mistake. But I am a bit concerned about my menu for the day:

breakfast: 1 english muffin and a bottle of grapefruit juice
midmorning snack: cheetos
lunch: chicken sandwich and baked beans and water
afternoon snack: grapes
planned dinner: nachos, strawberry sundae and sprite

Not exactly the best of the best but good enough. I'm just not too hungry these days again. Kendall definitely kicked up a storm when I ate that chopped chicken sandwich. It might have been the hot sauce.

*sidenote: someone is eating popcorn near me and it smells! yuck!*

I'm still pretty exhausted but that's to be expected. On a lighter note, one the ladies I work with was commenting to another co-worker about how pretty and nice I look everyday and how well my pregnancy is going. Made me feel kinda good about myself today instead of feeling like a huge elephant.

Finally a decision was made about the invitations for the baby shower: we're just going to order them. I was so sick of looking at these things, I told my mom to forget it and let's just order these suckers. No sense in stressing myself. Besides, it will help save some money in costs for the shower anyway. My job is throwing me a baby shower next Friday, which I'm totally excited about! My first baby shower. I hope someone has a camera to take pictures for me. I also can't wait for the cake. My own baby shower cake. Just too precious! I may need to stop and pick up something eat on my way home. I'm feeling a little hungry.

Emotionally today I feel ok, a little down but I'll get over it I guess. I have some things on my mind in regards to K and I'm not sure how I'm feeling about them. Well no, I know how I feel but don't want to deal with it. Ok, I need to get up and walk around because my mind is wandering all over the place and my arm hurts. Tomorrow will be a great day...and I'm make sure of it.

Blah day

Forgive me if I seem a bit moody today. I guess moody isn't the right word; I think I'm more irritated today. For one, the shower invitations that I'm trying to print just aren't working out. I know part of the reason is the printer. My thing is, as much as I would love to use this for the invitation, just to print it on the reasonable printer like kinko's is going to cost a grip. I'm sure it shouldn't be a big deal, but damn. I'm tired of dealing with invitations. Just do the damn baby feet and be done with it.

I have a bad stomach pain going on. Just to the left of my belly button. Maybe it's Kendall or maybe I'm straining that muscle. I don't know. Last night I couldn't sleep for running for the toilet. Not to vomit but I couldn't sleep with anything on my stomach. Seems he didn't like my veggie soup I made for dinner. Well, too bad because I'm having it for lunch too. I had tons of tomatoes and other veggies and I don't want to short myself on that. Oh well, never mind. I'll just eat what can and pray it stays down.

I'm still exhausted as all get out. Tonight I'm going to bed immediately after Top Model. Screw that staying awake stuff. I might read for about 30 minutes and then lights out at 9:30. I feel like I need more rest even though I'm sleeping about 7 plus hours each night. What's up with that? I took some updated pictures last night and I'm totally not feeling them today. I dont' think their a good reflection of me. The black dress made it hard to see my stomach. I'll retake them when I get home.

Other that, its just another cloudy day in Georgia and baby boy isn't as active as he normally is in the mornings. Usually he would have kicked or stretched by now and I haven't felt anything. I guess he's sleepy too. Can't say that I blame him. Get your rest, kiddo.

28 weeks (7 months)

We are at 7 months and my how time has flown by. I can't believe that in just 2 short months (or sooner!) Kendall will be in my arms. Before I get into how I'm feeling at this mark, let me back track about how the past couple of days have been. I actually celebrated my first Mother's Day this year. Yea, I got a little teary eyed but K took me out to dinner Saturday at Maggiano's. We stuff our faces and had tons of food to bring home. Good thing we did because it was great for lunch yesterday at work. Sunday we went out to brunch at The Flying Biscuit, then walked around Little 5 Points, got some ice cream at Coldstone Creamery, walked around the Edgewood shopping center and then went to the bookstore. It was such a great weekend. I couldn't have asked for anything better. I bought my mom some flowers and a $30 gift card to Dillards. Then I ordered my grandmother some flowers that she loved. It was a great weekend for all.

And here I am today. I feel ok. I was bit groggy when I woke up this morning. I think I need to start going to bed earlier or something. I'm just tired and a little depressed. I'm really nervous about the childbirth but lately I've been feeling a little, I don't know, played I guess would be the right word. I've been so wrapped up in my pregnancy (as I rightfully should be) that I forget that K and I are well...whatever we are. I'm not going to get into this right now. No, I'm going to focus on the positive and what's going on right now.

The favors for the shower arrived. They are so cute! Which leaves me with decorations and that's about it. I'll figure that stuff out later at the last minute. I want some really cute centerpieces but I also want to be able to break things down really easily. I have to think about this some more.

We're supposed to go visit K's family at the end of this month. By then I'll be 30 weeks. Hard to believe not too much longer after that. Of course that will be our last trip until the baby gets here. No sense on being on the road and I could go into labor any day then. Besides, it will be way too hot to travel anywhere and with these gases, I would rather stay my butt at home.

In terms of getting ready for Kendall's arrival, all I've done is register at the hospital, I start the classes next month, the baby shower is next month and we're supposed to order the furniture at some point this month. I should just go ahead and do it myself but I'll let K handle it since he wants to. whatever. Apparently, my office is throwing me a baby shower next Friday. I thought that was really sweet. Speaking of which, I need to get ready to run out for lunch to pick some paper to test my invites for my own personal shower. *sigh* Seems like I can never get anything done. Couple that with the frustrations I have at work and it's just a ball of attitude.

Much better day than yesterday

I'm not as moody today although, I have kept to myself quite a bit. Just not feeling like being bothered with folks, I guess. I've pretty kept to myself while Kendall has kicked me all day. I think yesterday was just a bad day for me. It happens.

Still no agreement on the invitations. Actually, I haven't looked at those doggone things since yesterday. I did redesign one I had and resent it to my mom, Estelle and Wanda to get opinions. It's basically a collage of my photos. I'm really leaning towards that and might test print this weekend. We'll see.

I'm going to order the baby furniture tonight. I'm tired of waiting on K to do it. I asked him to order at the first of the month and he hasn't done shyt. Whatever. I'll take care of it myself and get the money from him. Speaking of money, I have to drop off a payment on the community center today. Estelle dropped some cash off at my place last night. With that, we don't have much to pay on the location. I have to remember to call Rosie tonight so I can get her address.

Other than that,its been an ok day. A little gassy, and he was kicking alot but ok. I have no clue what we'll be eating for dinner tonight but since Ugly Betty and Grey's Anatomy comes on, it will be something totally not healthy for us.

Kind of moody today

I have officially reached my breaking point with this baby shower. No seriously, I'm done. I have changed my mind about the freaking decorations, colors and invitations so many times. I don't have a clue what I want at this point. No, I take that back; I do but I'm just having a helluva time saying that's finally it. Granted I have a month to have it together but I feel I need to do this now. Hell, we haven't even ordered the funiture yet. Screw this, I'm not going to wait around for K to do this when he wants. This needs to be done. I'm sorry but I have a serious attitude today. I guess this is the moody part of pregnancy. Whatever. It's just been one of those days when I should have stayed in bed. Lord knows I wish I had but I can't. No, mommy has to come to work and make money so she can take care of things before Kendall gets here. I may start going out for lunch again. I used to spend that time going to the store and getting so air. Perhaps that will help my mood. It just seems like everyone insists on annoying me today.

I dont like my hair, I feel like nothing I put on is cute, I look a dayum mess, my skin is either really oily or really dry, my hair on my legs has me looking like a Yetti died on it. I mean, come on. No, let me stop complaining. I am ever grateful for every challenge and every uphill battle because the end result is this beautiful baby boy growing inside of me. Speaking of which, I put a message out in the Parent' sListserv about childbirth classes and got TONS of responses. This one girl told me I could call her personally and she would relay some info to me. She gave birth at the same hospital I'll be at. Everyone is raving hypnobirthing and the bradley method. I want to try a combination of both, primarily the hypnobirthing. I'm really excited about. I know what type of birth experience I want and are glad I have the support of my family and the midwives for that.

One lady made a good point, she said that she thinks the best prevention and way to have natural childbirth is to exercise and preparation. How awesome is that? I need to increase my exercising, although I do pretty good now. I could certainly do more walking and plan to break out the yoga dvd when I get home. No sense in it lying around collecting dust. I need to put it to work. End of discussion.

Ok, I feel a little better now that I've had a midday vent fest. On the baby progression note, I've been experiencing some pressure down there. Like his foot is going to out or something. I know that sounds strange but it seems like he's lower. I don't think he's head down at all (why do I have a breech baby) but I'm going to do the exercises they recommend to get them to turn. We'll wait about 3 more weeks and see if he starts to turn then. at 8 months, this boy better be face down and ready to decend. Momma can't take it if I have to have a c-section. Lord knows I don't pray for that.

27 weeks (FINALLY!)

27 weeks and counting. Well next week begins the 7th month, which means only two more months left. I called the hospital earlier to sign up for another class. This one is on June 14th and it's the breastfeeding class. The nurse also recommended that we attend one or all of the prenatal series. I'll have to talk to Ken about that this evening or tomorrow. I feel like I got bigger over the weekend or something. My stomach really pokes out and is super round. Gosh this pregnancy is progressing fast. I think I'll actually miss being pregnant once it's all said and done. It's just the delivery I'm terrified about.

I was so exhausted when I got home last night. I struggled to stay awake to watch House. I ate a really good veggie salad from Willy's and then washed my hair. Once I was done, I did some squats up against the door. K gave me the most wonderful body massages on Sunday morning and Sunday night. I'm sure I've already talked about this but I needed that. that coupled with the squats I did last night felt great. Those squats really open things up for you. My hips felt so good afterwards. I'm going to make sure I do those every night and hold for as long as I can. I'm trying to do what I can to make sure I don't rip or tear during delivery. Which reminds me, I need to ask the midwife if they have birth balls at the hospital.

On that note, I think I'll get back work and prepare to leave for the day. I still have to go shopping for Mother's Day cards.

Picture Update

I'm slipping on my game with the pictures. I was supposed to take one last week when I was 26 weeks and here I am, 27 weeks tomorrow and I still haven't. My plan this evening is to take a picture and post it up immediately. With that said...

Yes, this is the beginning of week 27. Can't believe I'll be 7 months next week. It's amazing how the time is flying. I think I'll actually miss being pregnant when it's all said and done. It's been pretty cool having this little boy inside of me. I haven't gained any weight, my hair is at its best, my skin, well, that's a different story. LOL. I also love the bonding that is occuring with my mother and I right now too. Sometimes I sit around and daydream about how things will be when Kendall gets here. I can see us now, lounging around at home playing. I can't wait to meet him. And who knows, maybe one day I'll have another child so he can have a sister or brother. Naturally I want a husband before that happens. LOL

I'm still trying to narrow down the selection for the baby shower invitations. It's pretty much going to be the baby blocks but I need to work on the centerpieces. Something else I plan to spend the week getting together. I'll work on that come Thursday. K and I still haven't ordered the furniture yet. I need to make sure we do that by no later than next week. The sooner it gets here, the better. That way we can have that set up and ready to go by June. I don't want to be 8 months pregnant and go into labor without ANYTHING here for Kendall. Heck, I haven't even started to pack my hospital bag yet. I'm panicking. I know I need to calm down and get organized. Yes, that is the plan for this week. Set some realisitc goals and get them done. This means my home and all. Ok, I feel better.

Saturday night, K and I saw Iron Man then went to McDonald's. I shouldn't have ate those chicken nuggets so late because the boy kicked until 3:30 that morning. Then Sunday morning K gave me the best massage ever. It felt GREAT. I think he knows when his daddy is rubbing my stomach and when I do it because he started kicking up a storm. Then Sunday night he gave me another massage on my legs and feet and upper shoulders. Before I knew it, I was sleep. I don't even remember falling asleep. It's time like that I really love that man. Funny thing, his mom called him last night while I was cooking and I talked to her. She said he might faint on me while I'm delivering so I need to be prepared. Then she said that when the doctor told her and his father that she was pregnant, his dad got up and walked out. LOL. I said that's funny because when I told K, he just sat there and started pacing. I had to make him say something to me. LOL. Funny how they have ways alike. Anyway, I thought that was funny. I just can't wait for this little rascal to get here so he can meet all the people that love and adore him already.

With that said, I'm going to finish up some work and then head out at 4 so I can get home and take some new pictures.

**UPDATE*** Here are some pictures of me going into week 27

Labor and Delivery

I've noticed that as I get closer to the end, everyone wants to share their birth stories. Not only have I been freaked out and scared, but I've been grossed out. The concensus on advice is to stay on top of my breathing. If I lose it, I could let the pain consume me and it end up being too painful. I thought this was really good advice for a first time mother.

Daily I'm plagued with thoughts of how the labor might be or what to expect but my mom told me to just let my body do what it's supposed to do. I'm not going to stop it or force it to happen. I am very nervous and feel as though I'm not ready but I don't have a choice. This baby will come when he wants to come. Right now, I feel like it might be in July. And Kendall just kicked me so I guess it will be. *sigh* I'm going to stay prayful and know that everything will be ok. The Lord wouldn't have put me in this position and made me capable of doing this if I didn't know how to. I will keep my faith in him about all things.

While on the subject, I need to decide on my doggone invitations. I swear, this is so exhausting. At least I ordered the favors already. I'll hold out on the other stuff until I (hopefully) get a stimulus check.