False Alarm again

Yesterday on my way home I started experiencing a crampy feeling. It started while I was on the phone with my cousin. By the time I made it home, it was still coming and they were getting slightly stronger. So, I emailed my mom and told her how I was feeling. She said it sounded like pre-labor pains and that she would stop by on her way home from work. The whole time she was there I managed to cook dinner and we chatted for about 45 minutes before she left and I still managed to have them. They weren't painful but man were they annoying.

After she left they started back up and I figured that if I were going to go into labor, I might as well get my last meal in and go to Mickey D's for a Big Mac. While I was in the drive thru, they kept getting stronger and stronger. It didn't help that they messed up my burger so I had to go back around and get an attitude. I got home and decided to get comfortable before K got home. He scared the crap out of me when I came out of the bathroom. I had no idea he was there. I told him that I think it may be time to head to the hospital the look on his face was priceless. LOL.

I called the nurse and awaited a call back. In the meantime, I was on my knees in pain and called my cousin. He told me to go to the hospital or wait it out. We opted to wait it out and see. I mean, if these contractions weren't coming every 5 minutes, no need to leave out. K kept rubbing my back the whole time (as if rubbing was going to do something!) and finally the nurse called back. She talked me through it all and said she would call the hospital and let them know I may be headed that way. Well, waited and timed them and they finally disappeared by 10:30. I don't remember falling asleep but apparently I did because my mom called about 11 to check on me and I was knocked out.

We are at the point now where we're waiting on pretty much any day, any time for Kendall to show up. I'm nervous and anxious but I figure since Friday will be my last day, I can spend next week going for walks and maybe swimming. Its a good exercise and will give me a chance to relax. Hopefully I can make it to the end of the next week but we'll see. I've had some pressure 'down there' and Kendall is definitely moving. There's a new moon on Friday so maybe while I'm at Kanetta and Naomi's house he will decide to get moving.

39 weeks

Well, I turned 39 weeks today. Officially one more week until I have been pregnant for 10 months. 10 freaking months. I feel ok with the exception of missing some serious sleep and feeling some cervical pressure. I guess I'll end up making it to my due date after all. I woke up in bad pain in the middle of the night. I had to hit Ken to wake him up so that he could rub my back. I mean, the pain was paralyzing! I've never felt anything like that. I don't know if it was a contraction or back spasm. Either way, that ish hurt something serious.

I plan to take some pictures today when I get home from work. Just a few shots since I look kinda cute today. *wink* For some reason yesterday I got hit with that "jump his bones" feelings. That all changed around 9 pm for reasons I'd rather not say. I'm trying not to let myself get upset but sometimes that man just pisses me off! Argh!!!!!!!!!

Tonight I plan to actually cook dinner. Yea, I know. How about that? Can't tell you the last time I've actually done that and figured I'd try it tonight. If I'm not too tired or too lazy to do. Personally I think I may just clean the kitchen and leave it at that. K can cook if he wants. I'm just not feeling up to it these days. I'm exhausted and very much pregnant.

My friend Na just emailed and asked me how I was feeling. After i explained to her about the insomnia (which is worse than before), she meant emotionally. I told her that there are moments when I'm ready to get this over with and others when I'd rather just stay pregnant. I guess my thoughts are plagued with worrying about if I'm really cut out of this mother stuff. I mean, I know have maternal instinct but now I'm responsible for a life. I mean, that's major! Maybe I'm worrying myself for nothing. We'll see. Either way, I'm sure everything will be just fine.

I'll be sure to take those pictures and get them posted up tonight or first thing tomorrow morning.

Barefoot and pregnant

I keep having the craziest dreams that Kendall is here. K said that last night he had two reoccuring dreams about me going into labor. Does this mean that it's near? At 2 am, I got up because I thought the child was over in his crib, so I looked and realized that I was still pregnant. Yea, I think a full bladder in the middle of the night will do some strange things to you. Needless to say, I slept pretty good last night just wish I had more time. K and I got up for work and were talking as we were getting dressed. I guess we're both pretty anxious about getting this baby here at this point. What's pissing me off more than anything right now are the swelling of my feet. I mean, seriously, I am so sick of these things blowing up the way they do. It's freaking lunch time and I don't even feel like going out to get anything to eat because I know it's going to hurt to walk. *sigh*

I feel like I've done nothing but complain for the past month, which may be true, but why do things have to get worse before they get better? I am so sick of people commenting on the fact that I'm still pregnant. Yes, I know I am and I'm not due for over another week. Why does everyone want to rush it? *rolling eyes*

K has been home with me every night. He's been looking for an apartment closer to me so I suppose we'll be doing that this weekend. Personally I don't feel like doing much of anything but I know I need some air. I had plans to get a pedicure during lunch but I don't feel like going anywhere. I'll just stop by the mall on my way home and do it then. Tonight's plan is to fold laundry and kick back. That is it. I think K is playing basketball so I'll have some dinner ready for him but I have no other plans for the evening. I'm just going to be barefoot and pregnant.

38 week appt

Had my doctor's appointment yesterday and walked away a little depressed. Turns out I'll have to have antibiotics in my IV when I got into labor because I tested positive for Group B Strep. Nothing life-threating since it lives in everyone but can cause the baby to get sick with pnemonia since their immune systems aren't up to par. I'm fine with that but one of the downfalls is that it could interfer with nursing. *sigh* I'm really trying to breastfeed but we'll see what happens. I also found out that I am still at 1 cenimeter dilated, 30% effacement and the baby was moved back up in my pelvis instead of down. *blank stare* Doggone it little boy, drop! I just knew I was dilating something serious this weekend but nope. The kid has moved back up in my stomach and refuses to come down. At this point, it's looking like I might end up having him on my due date of August 8 after all. My midwife said that they will not let me go past 41 weeks without inducing me (something else I want to avoid) so keep your fingers crossed for me.

I called K to come over last night because I was feeling a little down and didn't want to be alone. He came and I assume for the mountain of clothes and stuff he left, that he'll be back over tonight. I do recall him telling me that he was pretty much going to move in after this weekend anyway so that he's there for when Kendall comes. I'm really hoping this kid shows by my next appointment. I guess I feel a little envious of those who already had their babies. I am so ready to meet the little man that will change my life forever. I know it won't be easy but I'm just ready.

I stopped by two daycare centers yesterday and think I found a winner. I love the facility and the staff. The woman in charge is really great. I do want my mom and Big to go by at some point so that we can get everything in order. Definitely an exciting time.

Well, nothing else to report at this point. Just waiting on baby boy to get here. Fingers crossed!

Insomnia

Ok, I'm really trying to stay optimistic and upbeat but I'm not feeling it. I've been up since 3 am. I had to force myself to go back to sleep at 5:30 for at least an hour so that I got some rest. I'm tired yet not sleepy tired. I feel like i just need to lie down and nothing at all. But that's not going to happen because I have tons of errands to run before going to my doctor's appointment today.

I am just so ready to have this baby already. Between his weight, the swelling and the annoying questions people keep asking, I'm mentally done. I am no longer a happy camper nor will I front like I am. If one more damn person says to me, "Why are you still pregnant?!" or "You're still here at work?" YES I AM 38 WEEKS PREGNANT AND STILL HERE! I can't rush when this will happen but I certainly want it to. Ugh! But hey, when Kendall is ready to make his appearance, he will. He is definitely a Leo; gotta run shyt even from the womb.

Well, I have my doc appointment in a few hours so maybe I've dilated. I'm hoping I have. I plan to eat some lunch here in a few. Nothing heavy until after my appt. We're on water restriction here at work so we can't drink the water until notified. This sucks because water tastes so good and now I have to spend $1.25 just get a bottle. Geez! Anyway, I suppose I'll try to do some work (yea right, what work), eat and the head out for my appointment.

Mucous plug - going, going, gone!

Big finally put the crib together (I'll post pictures later) so everything is in place for Kendall's arrival. We had a false alarm Friday night about 3 am that kept us up until 4. By the time it was all over, I was exhausted. I did finally manage to do my grocery shopping so everything is set to go at this point. Nothing else to do, nothing else to buy. We are on baby watch, yellow status. LOL.

The funniest thing of the weekend was watching him put the crib together Saturday morning. It took him 6 hours! 6 freakin hours! first he swore the distributor sent the wrong pieces, then he finally figured it out. Once it was all put together, he realized it was too big to fit through the doorway to the bedroom. After he tried shimmying it in a couple of times and it didn't work, he took the whole thing apart and had to put it back together. Oh he cussed and fussed, but man was it funny. Needless to say, our baby's bed looks awesome. I can't wait to see him lying it in. I'll post pictures later.

Sunday was a lounge day. We picked up the crib mattress and that was it. We also got some chinese food I had been craving and camped out while we watched Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. I woke up really nauseous again this morning but I guess it may be an early labor sign. I noticed yesterday afternoon that was feeling a little funny "down there". For a minute I thought my water broke and ran to the bathroom. Turns out it was my mucous plug coming out. It was so gross! I told Big and he freaked a little because he thought it was time. LOL. Needless to say, we chilled the rest of the day.

I feel ok so far this morning. A little anxious but I'm ok. Just ready to have this baby and keep it moving. I miss my body but at this point in the game it isn't my show. Whenever Kendall is ready to show, he will. I'll be doing some 38 week pictures today so I'll post them later.

37 week appt

Everything looks good so far. I had my doctor's appointment yesterday:

• Kendall is still head down
• Weighs over 6 pounds now
• Is at -2 station
• Dialated a cenimeter
• His heartbeat is really good
• My BP is good as well

The doctor said it could be anyday now so we're just waiting to see what happens. Considering how tonight is the full moon, who knows. At this point, I really don't care when he comes. Yesterday's appointment was rather uncomfortable. Because my cervix is still pretty high, she was reaching pretty far up in there and that crap hurt! She kept apologizing but hey, gotta do what you have to do. I finally told my aunt this morning that she is going to be Kendall's Godmother. Lord, if that woman didn't scream in the phone. LOL But I couldn't ask for anyone better to be his godmother. Now, the Godfather is another story. We're still working on that one.

I've been waking up pretty nauseous every morning. I think my toothpaste has something to do with it. This morning it seems it was more severe because I had a horrible headache too. I ate some breakfast and had a bottle of water so maybe that will help. So far I'm starting to feel a little better just a little achy and out of it.

I just realized that I haven't done any picture this week. I'll have to do some when I get home. I was thinking about going to the mall when Kanetta after work to do some walking if I can stand it. We'll see how I'm feeling. I'm just concerned about the ankle and feet swelling.

37 weeks

We've made it to 37 weeks and I feel fine. Tired as normal but ok. I honestly think I've moved past that whole, "I'm sick of being pregnant" phase are just letting things ride out. I'm still not sleeping well at night but thats a given. Still peeing every 5 minutes but that's a given too. At this point, it is what it is.

I also think my nesting urge is gone. I was thinking about buying some things for my apartment while out during lunch today. I don't need much but I do want to get a few things. I also need to put the carseat in. I keep hearing and reading about people installing it now. I guess it is that time, huh? I also plan to pick up a couple of night gowns and some loungewear while i'm out during lunch. I don't have much of that and will need something while i'm at home everyday for the first two weeks.

Speaking of being home, I really hope my mom and dad relay the message to people that I don't want visitors the first two to three weeks I'm home. Especially my family. I don't want nor do I need folks coming over there. When I come out, so will my baby. I keep saying I'm going to speak to them about that but it slips my mind. Anyway, nothing else to blog. I'll be taking some pictures this evening when I get home so I'll update this with those. Other than that, any day now....

The waiting game

Well, the furniture is all here and put together with the exception of the crib. The distributors forgot to put the screws in the box and are shipping them this week. We should have them by the weekend. I sure hope so. So, now all I have to do is finish my grocery shopping and buy some extra crib sheets. We're pretty much set at this point. I'm so ready for this kid to get here! K and I were both talking about how we want our bodies back. LOL His craving all the time is ice cream, mine is any and everything at this point. My appetite didn't pick up until the end. How crazy is that?

I spent most of last week trying to get my bills in order. I may be able to delay my car payment for two months, which would be fab, but my rent will go up. That can I deal with, but I just want to be able to eliminate at least one bill for about two to three months. I'm seriously thinking about paying $150 towards electricity for next month. Hey, one less bill to pay.

K and I still need to look into daycare options. Even though I plan to be out until the end of Sept or sometime in Oct, I need to get that stuff together. I want to send him there for at least a week prior to me returning to work so that I can get used to him being there. It's weird, but I ate this morning and have not felt him move. wait...there he goes. I was beginning to wonder....

Other than that, I think that's about it. It's the home stretch so it's just a matter of waiting. Funny that there is a full moon on Friday. I wonder if my water will break that night. LOL. I highly doubt it. This kid is not coming anytime soon.

Cervical pressure

I'm at the point now where I have to sit with my legs open. If their close together, Kendall starts kicking me and squirming so that I'll get off his head (my bad). But I've also noticed that I feel him lower than before.

*Update: the furniture is here! Yay! I can't wait to post pictures of K trying to carry it up 3 flights of stairs.

100th post!

This my 100th post! Wow. I can't believe I have that many.

Sharronica gets to go home tomorrow. She said both she and the baby are doing well. She said she feels like herself prepregnancy. I told that crazy child she better relax while she's staying with her mom so that she can get things back together. I for one will be at home doing nothing for at least 3 weeks. Maybe then I'll start to move around and get back on my feet but other than that, I'm just going to let my body heal. Heck, K will be there so he can do anything I need done around the house.

A couple of people have commented on the fact that I look like I may have dropped. I think I may have but who knows. Not really too focused on that right now anyway. All I'm waiting on is for my water to break and then we'll go from there. Which reminds me to put a towel on the bed or something. I've had some minor indigestion today and a couple of contractions, but other than that, i feel ok. Just ready to get home and chillax. I've decided that I'm going to stop by Wally World on my way home so that I don't have to bother doing it tomorrow night. This way I can spend my Friday night at home watching movies and K take that wall unit apart. *evil laugh*

On a good note, I found that I'll be having my stimulus and tax refund difference mailed out to me tomorrow (thank you Jesus!). That's much needed money for me. I'm going to make sure K puts at least $300 of into that into the high interest account he keeps raving about. We need to make some money moves for this kid ASAP. The rest will be back up money I use on bills. I was considering paying off one of my credit cards but I think I'll just take my time doing that. I don't want that money to become a crutch for me; its more like emergency cash.

Well, it looks like the rain is letting up. I'll go ahead and start packing up for home. I also need to remember to take my laptop with me today as well.

After visiting Sharronica at the hospital last night, I realized I am not ready to have this baby yet. It's not the fact of him coming, it's the labor part that I'm terrified of. K has been trying to act all cool about everything and then finally last night he admits he's scared too. WTF?! We can't both be scared about this.

I've been feeling tons of pressure down there today. I don't know if that means the baby has shifted down or what. At this point, I could careless. I mean, if its time, then its time. I'm so physically exhausted right now it's ridiculous. I did manage to pick up the carseat from a lady on the parent's listserv at work. It's really cute. Navy blue and yellow. I also need to drop off these clothes to a family in need. I won't even go into detail about how coordinating a time has been difficult. Whatever.

My ankles have been swelling like it's nobody's business. I tried to tell my mom this is getting out of control. I have a doctor's appointment next week so I'll be sure to bring that up while their swabbing all of my orficies for Group B strep. Gross. Anyway, nothing new to report other than I am so ready to go home. I was going to go by my parent's house but I don't even feel up to it. Even if I did I would just end up taking a nap over there. Which isn't so bad. Besides, I've been craving hamburger helper. Maybe my dad will make some for me.


***UPDATE***
Sharronica had the baby today at 2:21. She weighed 5 lb, 5 oz and was 18 inches long. Only took her 20 minutes of pushing and she popped out. She said she's happy but really tired. I can't blame her.

36 weeks - 9 months pregnant

I am officially 9 months pregnant today (7/8/08)and can safely give birth should the time occur. Today has been quite a day. I was slow getting up this morning. After a very restless and fitful nights sleep, I dragged into work and have been distracted all day. I got a call from my friend Sharronica around 10 telling me that her water may have broke. Girlfriend thought she peed on herself. LOL. Well, turns out her water did break and she is 6 weeks early! The doc feels everything should be ok for her. Too bad she hasn't gotten anything together for the baby yet. I went out during lunch and picked up some stuff. Poor thing is freaking out but she'll be ok.

I feel ok for the most part. Just ready to have this baby. I'm not rushing it but Lord knows that if my water decides to break, like TOMORROW, that would be just fine. LOL sike. I'd rather he wait about two more weeks.

Still have contractions in my lower back. I think part of it are contractions and the other part are just a back ache. I definitely need to go home and change shoes. These flat shoes are killing me. Well, other than that, life is grand and we're just waiting on the baby. Nothing new to report. I'll post pictures of myself today.

30 day countdown begins!

I took Thursday off. After feeling back on Wednesday, I knew I needed a day to just relax and get myself back together. I must say that after a 4 day weekend, I feel pretty good.

Had my doctor's appointment on Thursday and all is well. Kendall has finally turned head down and I have gained another 2 pounds, bringing my pregnancy weight gain to 14 pounds. Not bad. Since everything was going to so well, the doctor suggested that I come back in two weeks so they can do Group B strep testing and check for dialation. I will be 37 weeks by this appointment date.

I feel ok overall. Heavy and tired but I'm getting there. I've noticed a serious increase in swelling of my feet. To remedy this I use cold wash cloths and they work wonders. Thank goodness. Still contracting everyday, often during the middle of the night. Twice I've had them in the middle of the night and tried to wake K and he rolls over. The fool doesn't even hear me! LOL But its all good.

I had a pretty good holiday. We saw the fireworks and kicked back all weekend. I didn't want to do too much except rest all weekend and I did just that. One another note, he finally ordered the furniture! Yay! I'm so excited. I'll have to talk to him about giving him my half of the money for it. And it was the set I really wanted from Target. I guess it will be here by the week's end. Tonight's plan is to return some clothes, clean out my car and figure out when I want to go grocery shopping. I really hate cooking my apartment but at this point, I have not choice. I guess I could clean out the fridge first, huh?

The 30 day countdown starts today. Hopefully baby boy will bake until 38 weeks but we'll see. The full moon is next Thursday so we'll see what happens. Since I'm feeling pretty good I think I'll make my 50th trip to the bathroom for the day and do some work.

Feeling like crap

I feel like shyt today. I mean, seriously, I feel awful. Well, I feel slightly better since I went to the bathroom and had a BM but other than that, I'm tired and just feel bad. I've decided to take tomorrow off and just rest at home. Since I'm meeting up with the girls for pedis and and early dinner, I figure no sense in rushing. Plus I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow afternoon.

Kendall has been moving a like crazy and loves to ball up in my belly. Perhaps they can figure out what position he's in tomorrow. I'm just ready for this pregnancy to be over with already. My plan is to go grocery shopping at some point this weekend. That may have to wait until next weekend. I just don't have the energy to do it. I just want to lie around, watch tv and do nothing. Did I mention how exhausted I am? I need to remember to go by mom's tonight so she can trim my ends for me. I may just tell her to cut an inch off and even things up all the way around. My hair is starting to get on my nerves but I can't get braids yet. It's not "nappy" enough. LOL Anyway, let me get back to work. Maybe I can focus enough for the rest of the day and make it until 3:30.

My baby shower

I'm just getting around to posting some pictures from it but it was wonderful! My mom, aunt and friends really outdid themselves. It was everything I wanted my baby shower to be and more. I couldn't have asked for a better day. I'm feeling pretty swollen these days so I don't even look like myself in my pictures. Geez! I didn't know you swell everywhere when you're pregnant. Anyway, here are some pictures of the day:



I've been taking pictures every week and my friends saved them and created a photo album for it. It was soo cute!

We always do baskets for each other for gifts and they gave me a basket of goodies. It was filled with tons of books, blankets, toys and bible stories. I loved it so much!


My cake! I finally revealed baby boy's name at the shower: Kendall. Since his father's name is Kennith, and I refused for my child to be a third, we agreed on Kendall. No middle yet but it's coming!


Cutting the cake. I swear I look so swollen in this picture. Everyone kept telling me how great I looked but I felt like crap. LOL


That's my mom on the left in blue and Ken's mom on the right. You can't tell my mother she isn't a diva. LOL Both his mother and my mother have very strong Native American blood running in them so our baby is going to definitely have a "native" look to him. LOL Plus his daddy is handsome so that helps. *wink*


I had my first story published when I was 7 years old. It was called "How a rainbow came to be". It's actually in the state library back in Hawaii where I grew up. My mom kept the original story all these years, had it framed for me to hang in Kendall's room. It was touched but should have figured my mom would do something like that. She keeps EVERYTHING. LOL

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Well, today is July 1. Can't believe August is a month away yet I only have 36 days until my due date. Lord knows it would be great if I could make it until then but we'll see. If you leave it to everyone else, I'll be having this baby sometime between the 15 of July and the 25. I wouldn't count that out at this point. Especially not the way I've been having contractions.

Anyway, I think K finally ordered the furniture on sunday. He asked if that was what I wanted and I said yes. I need to remember to give him the $100 gift card for Target so that we can save some money on it. Hey, a little bit goes a long way.

I had another contraction last night around 2:30 am. It was pretty intense. I couldn't even move to grab the phone if I needed to. At this point its just a matter of anyday now. Myfriend Lex and his girlfriend Shay had their baby yesterday. Her water broke about 9 something and she delivered at 11:47. I'm so jealous! I hope my delivery is short but I have a feeling this boy is going to make a scene. He will be either a Leo or a Cancer so we'll see.

Only thing left to pick up is are some extra crib sheets and probably something for that bassient. Speaking of which I need to get it out of my house asap. I guess it can go to K's house.