39 weeks

Well, I turned 39 weeks today. Officially one more week until I have been pregnant for 10 months. 10 freaking months. I feel ok with the exception of missing some serious sleep and feeling some cervical pressure. I guess I'll end up making it to my due date after all. I woke up in bad pain in the middle of the night. I had to hit Ken to wake him up so that he could rub my back. I mean, the pain was paralyzing! I've never felt anything like that. I don't know if it was a contraction or back spasm. Either way, that ish hurt something serious.

I plan to take some pictures today when I get home from work. Just a few shots since I look kinda cute today. *wink* For some reason yesterday I got hit with that "jump his bones" feelings. That all changed around 9 pm for reasons I'd rather not say. I'm trying not to let myself get upset but sometimes that man just pisses me off! Argh!!!!!!!!!

Tonight I plan to actually cook dinner. Yea, I know. How about that? Can't tell you the last time I've actually done that and figured I'd try it tonight. If I'm not too tired or too lazy to do. Personally I think I may just clean the kitchen and leave it at that. K can cook if he wants. I'm just not feeling up to it these days. I'm exhausted and very much pregnant.

My friend Na just emailed and asked me how I was feeling. After i explained to her about the insomnia (which is worse than before), she meant emotionally. I told her that there are moments when I'm ready to get this over with and others when I'd rather just stay pregnant. I guess my thoughts are plagued with worrying about if I'm really cut out of this mother stuff. I mean, I know have maternal instinct but now I'm responsible for a life. I mean, that's major! Maybe I'm worrying myself for nothing. We'll see. Either way, I'm sure everything will be just fine.

I'll be sure to take those pictures and get them posted up tonight or first thing tomorrow morning.