Kendall is now 9 weeks old and in daycare. His first day was rough for me. I only called the daycare once and went by to visit once. It's getting a little better. Considering how I'm returning to work tomorrow (Thursday), I will distracted during the day. Tjank goodness for web viewing though.

We're getting better at our sleep patterns. When he wakes up, I change him, give him a bottle and burp him and he's out all in 15-20 minutes. I would say that's pretty good considering he's 9 weeks old. He's also smiling and laughing more. He's even focusing in on me more than before. There are still some instances when it seems like he's not but he' s getting there. The doctor said that was all normal.

As for me, all that baby weight I lost seems to have come back. *sigh* I know part of it is me being lazy which is why I've been changing my eating habits. Of course it all starts there but I'm working on it. I have no choice but to. I figure when we get home int he evenings while he's napping, I'll exercise with Tae-bo. Now, Im saying this but I need to commit to doing it.

K went back home. WEll, we actually had a little spat but he ended staying at home so now it's just me and Kendall. I'm a little sad but I'm not going to fight with him or beg him to see his child. This is how it is going to be and I can't do anything about it. Anyway, I'm a little depressed about it but I'll get over it. It's all about me and Kendall now. We have our routine and it's been working out great.

I'm dreading returning to work tomorrow. The bills have to be paid but man I hate being on-cal 24 hours a day. Hence the reason I am diligently looking for a new job. Momma has to be home with her baby more and not be worried about calls in the middle of the night.

It's funny that I've been spending sometime over at MDC's Single Parents forum. Most of the people are there are beginning to date and I can't even imagine doing something like that. Me, dating? Please! my focus is Kendall. He's my date and we're together everyday. His dad is supposed to come over on Thursday and it is then that we will have the talk about visitation and how we're going to work all of that. I need a routine and something confirmed. And if he's planning to stay home all the time, I definitely need my key back.

Halloween is right around the corner and I need to figure out this picture thing. Doesn't look like he will be doing him until he's 3months old so that'sin November. I still want to do his Christening but I'm not sure how I'm going to do this. *sigh* this sucks. Oh well. I'll figure it out because that's what mothers do.