Kendall at 3 weeks

My baby is 3 weeks old and getting bigger everyday. I can't believe how time is flying by. One thing I do know that I plan to enjoy each and every moment I'm home with him. My plan was take him outside for a walk today but with this crazy weather it didn't happen. Oh well. Tomorrow is another day.

We're still working on the sleep thing. Actually, the problem isn't him, it's me. I'm the one who can't fall asleep at night. I need to work on going to sleep more in the evenings. We both go for our check-ups next week. And would you believe I just realized that this weekend is a long weekend? Labor day. Maybe we'll go out and do a family thing. Go for walks everyday or something so we can both get some sun and air. Next weekend, however, K is taking me on a date. As a matter of fact, I need to let him know that this evening. LOL. I'm ready to get out and be around some people. I'm talking dinner, a movie and all. I'll let Kendall stay with mom and dad for the night so we can sleep a full night. Lord knows it's be awhile since we did that.

We had that dreaded money discussion last night. I was a bit nervous about it but we really needed to talk about how we were going to handle paying for things in regards Kendall. Luckily, the conversation wasn't as hard as I thought it would be to have. And we had a really good evening, the 3 of us lying in bed talking and watching tv. Oh that note, let me run since it's time to wake him for a diaper change.

3 weeks old

It's been a minute but I've been busy with a newborn. Kendall turned 3 weeks old today. My how time is flying by. Seems like just yesterday my water was breaking and we were rushing to get to the hospital. He's growing so much! I'm still adjusting to this waking up constantly at night but we're doing great. He also stretches...alot. I was abit worried but my mom says that's normal. He's even given me a smile or two. I hope and pray he'll have some big smiles when we do pictures in October.

I feel great. I think I've lost alot of pregnancy weight and I feel like myself again. Yesterday I drove for the first time. It was nice to get out of the house for a few. Saturday I spent the day with my parents. It was nice as well. Then tons of family came over to see Kendall and have dinner. We didnt stay for dinner but we were there with them. I love all the love that comes with a new baby. Well, Kendall is crying so let me go tend to him.

Two weeks old

It's been a minute but I have a newborn so I try to blog whenever I can. Kendall will be two weeks old tomorrow. My how time has flown by. Breastfeeding is not going well at all. I can get him to latch on but he doesn't nurse well at all. I guess he's so used to the formula. I really hope I can at least get him to nurse at least once a day everyday but I said by the end of this week, I'm giving up completely. Yea, yea, I know. I probably shouldn't but it's frustrating. Besides, this kid is growing like a weed! LOL.

My grandmother surprised me and came into town this weekend. I was so happy to see her. She brought my little 5 month cousin Kamari with her.I got tons of pictures of Kendall and Kamari. I swear this Christmas will be a busy one. I'm so excited. I can't wait for him to get about her size and doing what she does.

Today K and I spent about 5 hours at my folks house. We had a huge dinner and sat around laughing. It was so nice to finally get out of the house and have a good time with the family. I had to keep taking Kendall away from them and put him in his chair so that he isn't used to folks sitting there holding him all day. People forget that I'm here with him all day and that once his dad gets settled in his apartment, I'll be here by myself. Yea, lest we not forget that.

K and I are getting along as well as can be expected. I have my days when I hate him but I'm trying my best to be compromising and understanding that this is his son and that's he's a first time dad. *sigh* Lord help me. I'm trying but man....

I finally got my short term disability pay. Yay! I can go ahead and pay my rent for Sept and Oct. Thank you Jesus. Luckily I'll have the extra cash to pay for my other bills and stuff before returning to work. Oh, I invited the girls over a ladies afternoon at the end of the month. I plan to go through some clothes and donate tons of stuff to Goodwill. I want to start fresh with my wardrobe and plan to get rid of tons of stuff. Purses and all. The only thing I'm keeping are my shoes and y'all know how I feel about my shoes... LOL

Friday nights have become pizza nights in my house. I don't cook on the weekend so I've gotten in the habit of ordering pizza in and kicking back. Tomorrow I plan to work on my closet and start folding/bagging clothes. Each day I'll have K take a container out of the storage closet for me to sort. Should help pass time during the day.

Oh! Funny story: Saturday night K and I got up with Kendall and would you believe that boy pissed and pooped all over my bed! Not to mention he peed all over my phone! >:( I was fighting mad but I couldn't blame him.

One week, two days

Things here at home with baby Kendall are going great. We still have some issues with breastfeeding and latching on, I plan to keep trying for as long as I can. Honestly I didn't even attempt to at all yesterday. I feel ok except for the occassional pain in my tummy but that's supposed to be normal. We had our one week check up and he has grown an inch and gained 6 oz. Go Kendall! Seems we're both doing well.

I'm pretty much getting in sync with his routine. Can't quite say it's predictable but I got an idea of how he operates. It's during the night that he likes to sit up and stay awake for an hour. I'm going to do my best to keep him up late tonight. Last night he woke up at 1:30 and 5:30. This wasn't so bad. K is still adjusting to life with a baby. We both are really. I've been feeling a little bit of the baby blues but not because Kendall, moreso because of K. I just don't feel like he's attracted to me anymore. Last night we spent the evening eating dinner tonight and talking in bed for an hour. It was really nice to at least do that much. I just wish he would at least hug me or touch me other than back to back. But this is another story for another day.

Other than that, things are peachy. We go back for our postpartum appointments just after Labor Day and might get the green light to leave the house for a change. LOL. The first thing I plan to do is cook a HUGE dinner at my parent's house in honor of their anniversary since I didn't get a chance to do anything for them. I hear Kendall stirring so let me check on him and see what we're going to eat for dinner tonight.

Day 5 as a new mommy

Well, its been 5 days since Kendall was born and my life has completely changed. I have never been in love with someone the way I love him. He is wonderful in everyway. From every spit up to the two times he's peed on me, I love him like I never loved any man. His father is certainly proud. I have to keep reminding myself that he's never handled babies before and doesn't know how to do things. I try not to sound mean but he needs to learn that you can't loolygag when it's time to move. He's so slow about changing diapers and even warming a bottle. It's frustrating because I've had practice my whole life but I'm making myself learn to slow down, breath and teach him.

I think I may have overdid things yesterday because I've had an awful pulling in my stomach. And naturally it hurts to cough so I said I would take today easy. It doesn't help that there are tons of clothes to wash but I'll put them up tomorrow. I know I have the support of everyone and will take advantage of it. Speaking of which, I need to figure out what to eat for breakfast. When K wakes up I'll have him to get me a smoothie and salad. I'm trying to make sure my diet is very healthy so that I can drop the baby weight but also so my milk supply is good for Kendall. Speaking of milk....

Mine still hasn't come in. My boobs are pretty sore today but I haven't attempted to put him on yet. He and his father are still sleeping. They look so cute sleeping in the bed together. As much fuss I put up about not letting him sleep with us, he's been in the bed with us all night. LOL. I'm a new mommy. I cant help it. My goal for the weekend is to relax and not have any visitors. Right now I just want to chill and spend time with my little family. Wow, I have a family...

He's here and I'm a mommy! Birth story

I woke up around 6 am on August 3rd unable to sleep. I felt fine. K and I did a lot of running around the day before and had even made it out to the movies that morning to see the new Mummy movie I was dying to see. Well, around 7:30 I decided to go back to bed since he wasn't up and I was finally getting sleepy. As soon as I hit the bed, I felt a trickle run down. My first thought was that I peed on myself. After I climbed back out of the bed and let my feet hit the floor, the floodgates opened. I yelled for K to wake up because my water broke. It seemed the water just did not want to stop so I jumped in the tub (yea, I panicked). After calling my parents and letting them know this was it, we both showered and got dressed.

I must have changed clothes twice because the waters kept coming. I mean, it was like Niagra Falls or something. We finally left the house about an hour later and met my aunt at the hospital. After the midwife checked me and confirmed that my water had indeed broke, things got long. Apparently I was dilating very slowly and it ended up causing serious distress to Kendall. I couldn't sit up because it was would raise my blood pressure so I spent the next 32 hours laboring on my sides. Yes, I said 32 hours of labor and half of it was without an epidural. I swear I snatched Big up a couple of times because the pain was extruciating. I mean, I have never felt pain like this before. I put my ipod and tried to get focuses and it helped some.

Because my dilation was so slow after laboring all night, they decided that a C-section would be best for both Kendall and I and we agreed. He was born at 3:26 pm on August 4, weighing 6lbs 1.9 oz, and measuring 19 inches long. He is such a quiet and content baby. We're still having some difficulty with breastfeeding but his bottle appetite is picking up. I'm just grateful and blessed for a healthy child. Other than that, everything is great. We may end up going home today or tomorrow, Friday the latest. I have some staples in my tummy that will have to be removed from the c-sec but I'm doing well.

K is the happiest man on the earth. He has done so well with getting up with him everytime he cries and taking care of him. Since I've been pretty bed ridden, it's all on him and he hasn't complained once.

39 week appointment

Yesterday's appointment went like this:

• Still 1 cm
• 60% effaced
• Soft and mushy cervix
• Kendall still hasn't dropped
• Anyday now

I was hoping that there would have been more change than this but it wasn't. Either this kid is waiting on his due date or he's just being stubborn. I'm trying not to fret about it, but hey, it is what it is.

I'm still having contractions and ankles swelling. She also said that ankle swelling will go away after I deliver. yay! It seems the blood return in my feet is blocked by the baby so that's all.

Well, there isn't much else to report other than I'm ready and just waiting. Today is my last day at work and I plan to spend next week lounging. *sigh* It should be so wonderful.