Officially 20 weeks

I am officially 20 weeks today. Yes, baby dearest, we made it to 20 weeks. Thank you Jesus. I want to celebrate by buying something butttt.....considering how I don't know the sex of this child, I'm going to hold out until Thursday.

I feel ok today. Had a really good breakfast, I was late on eating lunch (like way too late) and have no clue about dinner at this point. Right now, I just want to go home, curl up in bed with K and do nothing else. I'm really really excited about my appointment on Thursday. At first I didn't want to know the sex but I'm at the point where I feel I need to know. Childbirth is magical and I feel that I may feel a bit more connected to the baby if I knew he/she was a he or she. LOL

I read a very touching story on MDC today. Apparently this woman is going to have to go through her pregnancy alone from this point because her SO is acting like a jerk. Her story sounds so much like mine and K's. Not that we're perfect but I understand her pain and how this hurts. I told her that I understand her pain and that she will get through it. Lord knows I don't know how I would have made it through all those times with K. Like I told her, I'm grateful for supportive family and friends because I could have choked the shyt out of him.

Speaking of him, Sunday night we were lying in bed and he says to me "I was telling my mom how I'm really excited now. That I've enjoyed shopping and looking at baby furniture." *blank stare* Did K just say that? I mean, the guy barely gives a reaction to anything and here he is talking about how he's excited about our child coming. I suppose it's gotten real to him but that does not excuse any past stuff. No sir. Not all the mess he had me going through early on and even recently at the beginning of the month. I don't know what he's doing when he's not with me but I'm not going to spend my nights trying to figure it out. I can't take that kind of heartache and pain right now. Not while I have this life in me growing.

I think I'm going to go buy another pack of diapers today. I'm just trying to start stockpiling while I can. More diapers, wipes and detergent. You can get all you want of those.

I'm still leaking milk and my breast are so itchy! My stomach has finally started to itch and that black line is starting. *sigh* this pregnancy is so real, I mean, for real for real. Heck, I need more pants and need to get some because my belly is expanding by the second. I guess I'll hit up BCF at some point this week.

I went by the bank today to cash those checks and the teller was God-sent. She told me about this program called Way2Save. Thank goodness for that because it takes $1 from each purchase and puts it into a savings account. By the end of the year if you've accured about $300, Wachovia will match that. Is that not the most perfect thing for the baby? I'll just let the money build and use it as an account that goes for the baby. I love it! On another "I love it" note, I got my student loan payments down to $61 dollars a month! ThankyouJesus! Now, if I can just get me and this child a house or bigger apartment, that would be freaking awesome!