*sigh*

Today was been a rough day emotionally. All I keep thinking about is the fact that I have a life inside of me growing. My baby has a heartbeat. I just cannot believe that. I was talking to my "big brother" Martese and found myself breaking down crying because I can't believe what's happening right now in my life. Times when I'm at home and I'm too sick to move or in so much pain that have to crawl to the bathroom, it reminds me that I just might end up going at this alone. K isn't with me 24/7 and I shouldn't expect anyone to be. Women have been birthing and taking care of children by themselves since the beginning of time. It's just that this is my first child and I'm scared. Sure I have my family and friends but, I guess that's all that should matter. Maybe these are the hormones talking and maybe I'm just being "extra". I don't know. What I do know is that I need not stress and worry myself about anything. I just wish I had someone to talk to sometimes when all these thoughts are running through my mind. It's such a rainy day and all I can do is lie around and cry. I hope this isn't going to happen for the next 7 months.

How I'm feeling:
Tired, a little naueous, bored and depressed

How far along:
6wks and one day