No updates - updated

It's Friday, I'm broke from paying bills and have no updates. Still not sleeping through the night and quite frankly, I'm in a sort of funky mood right now.

**Update***

I told Naomi and Kanetta I was pregnant today. Kanetta and I were having a conversation about marriage and life in general and I just broke down crying. She asked what was wrong and I told her I had to tell her something. I shouldn't have said it like that and had her all worried but all I could do was blurt out, "Im pregnant.". That was not the way I wanted to tell them but I did. I wanted to do it face to face on Monday but I couldn't wait and I was just overwhelmed with emotion. We called Naomi on 3 way and told her as well. They are both very excited and Lord knows I'm happy about that. I really need them and love that they know now. I hate not having anyone to talk to about this. It's been lonely and difficult at times. I was telling Kanetta that the hardest part is being alone when things get rough for me with the pregnancy. Sometimes the pain is so bad that I want to dial 911. I didn't tell K about the other night when I woke up and ended up on his bathroom floor because I was in so much pain. I should have woke him up but I didn't. I guess part me is still trying to make sure that I get used to possibly being at home by myself throughout things. It's just lonely sometimes.

I called a couple of friends tonight to see what they were doing and everyone is either out of town, headed to club or at a bar drinking. Things I can't do right now. I know I'm going to miss the party scene but this child is worth a year long sacrafice. When I'm home alone, I get lost in my thoughts and find myself crying about some of everything. *sigh* I think I'm just going to go out and get some dinner and watch The Wiz. I don't have anything else to do so I might as well make the best of a Friday night alone.